Dear Lucas,

what's up? Awesome, awful, or terrible? Me? Definitely not good. You're no longer mine, I am bothered by it and it hurts me deeply, but I can't help it, can I? I really miss you, even though I hate to think of it, every part of me misses you in every way.

I hope I could find the answers to my problems. I wish I could scream at you for not making an effort as much as I did. I really tried, Lucas, didn't I? But now that you're gone, I'm trying to stay sane without you. Lucas, you're really cruel..

Why couldn't you let go of your ego once? Was that not sufficient for you? Was I someone you could play with? I let you chase, love, and hurt me, but most importantly, I let you claim me as yours. How does one break something they adore? 

I could describe you as being hard-headed, egotistical, cold, and cold-blooded. It hurts that you weren't able to see the love in my eyes, that I wasn't good enough, and that you only saw me as a plaything.

I really miss you, but I have to let go of you for the sake of my sanity, my self-respect, and my happiness. I have always prioritized you over myself and followed your requests. you were treated as my one and only love. But did you also do that? Did you do the same to me? Do you feel the same way about me, Lucas? What is your heart telling you?

Another story that's sad and true I can feel the pain, can you? You had to be the one to let me down, to color me blue. Hate to see you with someone new, I'll put a curse on her and you. Ain't no looking back, now you're dead and gone. My love is gone too.

I swear, it's so difficult that it's almost impossible, but I can't do this without you. I've loved you as if you were the one and only. I guess the universe isn't on our side; as if we weren't intended to spend the rest of our lives together.

I'm happy we happened, I'm glad I loved you, and I would never in a million years regret thinking about the future we thought of building, I guess it didn't happen but that's okay, Lucas.

Just as you may now live without me and be happy without me, promises are meant to be broken. You're moving on, love, and I can't. Wish you could see how unsteady I am because of you; the feeling of vulnerability is eating me up. I'll try letting you go so I'll say goodbye now. So, Lucas, farewell. 

From the first day we fell in love to the last, from the first argument we had over nothing, to the final one that caused us to part ways; I have always treasured our days together.

I will remove your contact information, images, videos, and you personally, I do, indeed. I want to get past this, rebuild my life. And most importantly, learn to love and enjoy myself. I have loved you too much to be able to love myself with the same intensity. So I suppose it's a farewell to you, Lucas. I deserved much more than this. I hope we never run into each other again. Because my heart belongs to you and if you called, I would return to you, I don't want you to hurt me again. I wish you tried harder. It's okay though. I'll learn to move on, eventually. 

Before I say goodbye, I just have one question that I need to get out of my head, was I ever enough for you?

-Luna.