My hands were tightly holding onto a mixtape.

Hebiana's mixtape.

Tears fell in my eyes. My breathing was ragged as my chest heaved up and down. My hands were shaking as my eyes were blurry.

We were so happy... We were enjoying our lives being a couple.

But then fate decided to ruin everything for us.

She left me when she promised me not to.

I clutched the mixtape on my hand, crying endlessly.

"Why?" I sobbed harder.

I grabbed the mixtape player from her cabinet and played it as I cried.

"Sorry," her first word hit me like a train. My heart broke hearing her tired and weak voice. "I am sorry."

I could not stop crying, "I should be the one saying sorry, not you, Sunshine..." I sobbed louder as I held her wedding ring.

"Please love Eviana and your child. Please do it for me."

"No... No..." I cried more.

"I never wished for you to live anything and everything behind. I am your love. You are my love.

I am your sunshine as you are mine.

I am your joy and hope as you are my strength and faith."

She cleared her throat and began singing which strengthen my emotions.

"I am your Sunshine, your only sunshine. I make you happy when skies are gray. You'll never know, dear, how much I love you. I'm sorry. I'm saying goodbye."

"N-No..." I yelled, throwing the mixtape player outside the glass window. "I'm sorry, Sunshine. Please come back. Please."

-

I sat on the bedroom door and wrote.

"They say that love is part of fate. They say that heartbreak is a part of fate.

Is it my fate to lose her?

Is it my fate to lose myself?

All I wanted was to love her, was to be with her until death claims us.

I never wished for death to claim us both.

This is Cody Robinson. If you could hear me, please listen to me.

Please do not do anything to save me. I chose this.

Never has regret come across my mind nor my soul.

I was longing for her, only for her.

This longing has eventually drove me crazy enough to choose to die in flames than to live in coldness and darkness without her.

The moment my eyes met hers, I do believe that she is a ray of hope in human form.

The moment my hope died out, I lost sanity.

All I wanted was to take myself away from here.

Do not save me, please."

I threw what I was writing onto the window.

I harshly grabbed my motorcycle keys from the bedside table.

My eyes landed on the gallons of gasoline. I immediately grabbed seven, paid, then left.

I opened the gallons of gasoline and poured everything around the bedroom.

With a single drop of the lighter drastically changed everything.

"CODY! CODY!" I could hear Monie's hell as I laid on the bed, getting suffocated.

However, the suffocation that I was feeling was never enough to numb me from the pain. I lost Hebiana, my sunshine.

"What's the point of living?" I whispered softly, seeing the red, orange, and yellow flames engulfed everything around me.

"I love you, Hebiana, my Sunshine."

My eyes began closing. I heard a faint voice before fully vanishing.

"I love you too..."