The day of our short vacation came. I was unhappy because of what he said last time.

He told me that the swimsuit doesn't suit me and gave me a rush guard he just picked somewhere in the store. Like, seriously? Am I old for a two piece swimsuit?

"Hey Steffy, we're in the beach. Cheer up" Alex said. She knew what happened but she never reacted.

"I'm good. It just that, it's so hot today" I commented. I can't acted as if it was a big deal since it wasn't.

"I'll go swimming then. You should come with us later" she said. I nodded.

I'm wearing a rush guard while the other woman in our department wearing a two piece swimsuit.

I sighed. I knew two piece swimsuit isn't suit to me, I'm glad that I wasn't wearing one but I'm still wishing to wear one and make him admired me.

"Aren't you like to swim?" I turned my head to saw who's behind me.

"Sir Jarred" I said.

"You looked unhappy. Aren't you like to place?" he sat next to me.

"I'm good. I like the place. It's refreshing" I said while faking a smile.

"Are you mad because of your swimwear?" he look at me. I sighed.

"No, what you said was right" I answered.

"I'm actually lying when I said it doesn't suits you" he said. I looked at him puzzled. "You're really hot in that two piece swimsuit and at the same time, it was dangerous for you"

"Dangerous?" I asked, he nodded.

"You can attracted guys instantly. I can't protect you" my eyes widen as if he's saying I am gorgeous. "Forget it. Go swim with them" he stood up and left.

My heart beats fast and I felt that my face was red like a tomato.

"You're blushing" Rod said after seeing me still sitting at the picnic cloth.

"H-huh. I'm not" I instantly looked away. "It just hot today"

"Really? Ok" he said then take his towel.

I sighed and cover my face with my hands.

I felt my face turned warm and I can't imagine how red my face was.

I shake my head and stood up. I walk towards Alex and the others to play with while still wearing a big smile.

"What are you doing here, Ran?" I heard sir Jarred voice after I entered the hotel lobby. I looked around and saw him talking with a gorgeous lady.

I don't like ear dropping but I'm kind a curious what they're talking so I hide myself at the wall near them and listened.

"I miss you, aren't you miss me, babe?" the lady asked. He sighed.

Babe? Is that his girlfriend? I never knew he had one.

"Just go home. You're tired with your flight" sir Jarred said.

"But, I want to see you. I want to see my beloved fiancé" she said. I froze.

They're engaged. What the heck!

"I got it but I'm with my coworkers. Just go home today. I'll see you when I'm back" he pats her head and it's break me.

All this time, I thought I was special to him because he keep on patting my head and he never done that to my other coworkers but now, I feel like I was just an idiot seeing things differently.

"Ok, I'll wait for you then" she kissed his cheeks before leaving.

"What to do" he said to himself after lying down at the couch.

I feel like I'm about to cry. He's wasn't mine yet it hurts me knowing he can't really be mine.

I walked fast to reached the elevator and hoping he won't notice me yet he still saw me.

"Miss Lou, going back to your room?" he asked. I nodded. "I see"

After I reached the elevator, I sighed heavily.

I changed my clothes to pajamas after reaching my room. I sat on the bed and sighed.

I felt so broken but it's kind a funny that, at my age I'm still experiencing this kind of approach.

"I really like him" I commented before lying down.

I close my eyes and start relaxing.

I was in the same church, yet feel so different.

I wasn't walking, I just standing with other guests. What's going on?

I supposed to be the bride, walking in the middle of the church.

I look at the groom near the altar, it was him. The guy I wish to be with.

"The bride's coming" someone commented. I looked at the bride and it shocked me knowing it was his fiancée.

I shake my head hoping it will wake me up. The ceremony is still on going and they looks good together.

I want to cry. I want to shout yet there's no voice coming out.

"Stefanie" I can't be wrong, I heard him calling me.

I looked at him yet he's not looking at me. He's looking at his bride while saying his vow.

"Stefanie Lou, wake up" I felt a warm hand at my cheeks. He's holding me, I can't be wrong but I can't see him.

I want to wake up, but how?

I can't wake up. I can't escape.

I looked around and start running but the crowd suddenly blocked the way as if they wasn't see me. They're just happily cheering.

I started crying because of frustration. I want to see him. I want to wake up.

"Stefanie, hey" I saw his face, looking at me, worried. "Thanks God, you woke up"

I woke up.

I looked at him and suddenly hug him tightly.

"Are you alright?" he asked but I didn't answered. "You looks scared"

"I'm sorry" I hug him more.

"Its alright, you had a bad dream, I guess" he hugs me back. I nodded.

After some minutes, I separated myself to him.

"Thank you" I said, shyly.

"No problem" he pats my head.

"Please, don't do that" I said while rejecting his hand.

"I-I'm sorry" he said. "By the way, our coworkers looking for you. You should come down"

"I will. Thank you" I answered.

How can I move on? Or should I?