Three months later…

Needless to say, Project Son has not yet given the expected result and only pushed us further away. Carlos became obsessed with pregnancy, and all he talked about was it. He controlled my ovulation, the positions we should do and when we should. Sex became something planned and mechanical. I saw in Carlos' eyes the disappointment as the months went by. And all this only made me more stressed, frustrated and anxious. Especially when our friends began to get “pregnant”. Mr. X ended up becoming my support to overcome all that tension.

Mr. X says:
Good morning, Doce. How are you?

Dalia Penedo Salazar says:
Not well. The same problems as always, X. Sorry for not entering last night, we are trying to have the baby still and yesterday was the day to try the baby.

Mr. X says:
I know how it is, I’ve been there. When I realized I wouldn’t be on time, I decided to go to the RLC’s new club’s opening party.

When I read that, my blood boils. Mr. X should be just mine and not be talking to others.

Dalia Penedo Salazar  says:
Are you still playing RLC?

Mr. X says:
Yes, it helps me a lot to relax even more now with everything happening. Not to mention that the girls are very fun and greatly relieve my stress.

Dalia Penedo Salazar says:
It means that your partners are fun and relieve your tension… it’s always good to know that I don’t do it.

Mr. X says:
You know that you amuse me, cheer me up… But you also know that when I am in Switzerland we will no longer have as much contact as we have today. The RLC will be my company there.

Dalia Penedo Salazar says:
Good, I hope you find your next “Doce” when you’re in Switzerland.

I knew that one day this could happen, because he was very fond of the game of seduction. As much as it affected me, I could always pretend I didn’t feel anything, but it only made the situation worse.

Mr. X says:
Dalia, why are you jealous?

He felt that something has changed, and I can no longer lie.

Dalia Penedo Salazar says:
I’m jealous of the other partners you have. I’m jealous of you talking to them, going to clubs with them and playing. I die of jealousy to know that there are others besides me who have contact with you… who am not alone…

Mr. X says:
Dalia, understand that others will never be like you. What I have with them will never be like it is with us. In fact, none will ever be, but you need to understand that I have always had and will always have several friends. This is normal for me and I will not change.

After reading the message, my tears began to flow down my face. I know that the novelty "Dalia” is passing and until it lasted a long time, it was a little more than two years. I take a deep breath and conclude that it’s time to put a stop and let it go. It was good while it lasted:

Dalia Penedo Salazar says:
X, as of today we are no longer exclusive, virtually speaking. We will speak when we can and when we can’t, we speak by e-mail . I’m leaving now, I have to go to class. If we don’t talk anymore, have a nice trip to Switzerland and be very happy there.

I’ll log off without expecting an answer from him. They say pulling out the wound at once relieves, but they never say the wound still hurts… like it hurts me now.