Let's be honest, I know for myself that I still love AJ very much. I know I still love him very much but I can't stop myself from letting go and letting myself love him. I'm in trouble, right?

At least I'm confused about the mess I've gotten into in my life. Because if you remember, I almost became desperate just to forget about Mark Adrian who is now happy with Zoe whom I heard had an arranged marriage.

While I? Here I still don't know what to do, in front of me is the man I know in my heart that I love very much and love me very much but I'm afraid. Fear that what happened before will happen again when I hoped and was hurt. It's like a phobia.

"You know, Clare, the way you stare at AJ like that. You two haven't gotten married yet, maybe that turned into the water because you stare at him so much" I immediately turned to the speaker. It's just Hannah. We are in the Philippines. You know, even though it was against my heart, I just agreed to the wishes of Mama, Papa, and Kuya Xander.

I don't understand them. It's like they're giving me away even though they already know my story with AJ. But do you know what Mama answered me?

"Son, people change." Poop! People change? If that's the case, why doesn't the pain I feel in my heart go away?

It's annoying because Mama, Papa, and Kuya Xander want me to go back to the Philippines so we can get back together. I have to admit, half of my heart wants AJ and I to get back together, but the other half of it agrees with my brain that we shouldn't.

"Do you think there will be a wedding?" I just stared at Hannah. It's annoying. What does he think of me that I will again take a big rock the size of a person to beat it on my head again? No way. High Way.

"Why are you so bitter?" He asked me while looking at the sea. Yes, you read that right, we are here on the bench. The men here are just paddling in the sea while Hannah and I are talking under the shade of an umbrella.

I don't really know my parents why immediately sent me home to the Philippines. And then when I got home, I guess I just found out that we were able to immediately send Mama home because they wanted me to attend Adrian and Zoe's wedding. Well, a second wedding I guess. First, it was because of their arranged marriage, and then it was because it was true love. They are sweet, aren't they?

"I'm not bitter. I just really don't want to get hurt again" I said while just staring at AJ who was now close to a woman. Then the woman smiled, maybe that's why AJ smiled too. It's annoying, I don't learn to be shy anymore, the ex-girlfriend is here oh!

"Are you sure about what you're saying?" Hannah asked me as she looked at me for a moment and shifted her gaze to AJ who now almost hugs the girl because she is wearing a two-piece so fit that almost even the private parts of her body want to show.

"Of course," I said with a shudder. I'm just freezing. Do you know why? AJ is almost not almost because he is already hugging that girl. They are both smiling. And do you know what's even more annoying? Because of the woman's excessive lasciviousness, the tie of her bra was untied at the back.

"It's really flirty" was not my own exclamation while still not taking my eyes off AJ and his woman.

"You're not, you're jealous" and Hannah laughed at me. I just ignored her laughing at me and I looked back at AJ who was now behind the woman and he was tying the bra.

So do you really need AJ? You haven't learned to be shy, have you?

So I couldn't stop myself and immediately went to where they were and I just pushed the girl. They flirt too much, they flirt so much it's irritating.

"Why did you do that?" AJ exclaimed angrily and was about to help that girl when I stopped him. He looked at me.

"What is your problem?" you know it? It's like he's covered in a black aura. Is he mad at me now? What? and he's really mad at me! Okay, I'm the ex-girlfriend, don't I have the right to be jealous? That, I said.

"You. It's not too obvious, is it?" I shouted at him.

"Wow! It's okay. What did I do to make me your problem?" His eyebrows still met while saying that.

But I don't know why instead of answering his question, I suddenly kissed him. A passionate one. And when I felt that I had explained everything, I was the one who broke away from that kiss.

"Clare..." AJ said stunned. I smiled. Even me, you know that it's like in that kiss it's like the past came back. In the past, he hasn't hurt me yet. Just happy moments.

"AJ, are you okay?" He seemed to have composed himself, but instead of answering my question, he kissed me. It's like a kiss that's just pure love. We stay there maybe for 10 mins and finally our lips parted.

Then he hugged me tightly while wearing a happy face. It's funny because we didn't speak but look at us again now.

"I promise you, baby. I will take care of you. I love you"

"I love you too" and again he kissed me on the lips.

DURING the afternoon Adrian and Zoe's wedding took place. We are all happy for both of them. And when the pastor said that the two of them were married, we applauded. I looked at my neighbor because he suddenly grabbed my hand.

"Glad that you're with me once again," he said smiling causing me to smile and hug him.

"I'm also happy because in the end, you're the one meant to be for me" I closed my eyes because he kissed me on the forehead.

"I love you, my future wife"

"I love you too my future husband" and we sealed it with a kiss.