It didn't take long for me to find him. He still lives here near Tokyo. But even though I know where he lives, I still waited for the right time to talk to him.

"Oh! Sorry" I immediately turned to the person who spoke. A woman who seems to be with her boyfriend, I was not going to pay attention to them as if the man's face suddenly flashed back to me. He looks familiar.

"Adrian .." the man turned to me. Shock and surprise appeared on his face. Well, it's been a year.

"You're AJ, right" I just nodded and shook hands with him, like I do when I congratulate my clients.

"Yeah," We said hello for a while until he said that he was married to the girl he was with which is Zoe.

"Alright. We'll be on our way" Adrian let me know. They have left.

As for me, I was left here. Adrian is no longer my rival. Only Mitsue. I will do everything, just to get back to Clare.

Clare/Ria's Pov

"Ria, why does it seem like you're coming home this morning? Isn't your shoot in the Philippines over yet?" Mom asked me worriedly when I got home.

"Ma, the shoot is over. Yesterday, is our last day, and believe me Ma, I don't want to go back there" I just dropped myself on the sofa. Mama approached me, and she sat in the empty seat near me.

"Why?" Mom asked me curiously.

"It's about my past, Ma. And I don't want to talk about it" after I said that I went upstairs and went to my room.

It might just be a mistake why I returned to the Philippines. It's annoying. All in all. Why is this? When I was gone for a year, my life became happy and quiet. then what? Will it be messy and noisy again? I don't want anymore.

I don't want anymore. It's tiring. It's tiring to hurt.

Days passed and I felt weird. Do you know that feeling like someone is following you? Do you feel like everywhere you go, someone is following you? But when you turn around and look at who is following, there is none. The mess.

"Baby, are you okay?" I turned to Mitsue. I'm with him now. He thought that we should go on a date so that somehow I could have fun. Because these past few days I'm becoming a workaholic. Maybe it's because I want to forget what happened when I was in the Philippines.

I don't want to remember AJ's face. His face is pleading for another chance. I don't want anymore. Clare has been dead for a long time, and she has been a cold corpse for a long time but when I came back from the Philippines, why did Clare suddenly come alive inside me and struggled to get back with AJ? Which I don't like.

"I don't know either" He just held my hand. I faced him and he kissed me on the forehead.

"Is it about AJ?" I just nodded. Then I saw, I saw the pain in his eyes.

"Mitsue-Kun, I-I'm sorry -"

"It's okay. I can't blame him, because he came before me. I can't blame him if your heart is still screaming for him until now" and with that thought, I just burst my tears. Why is reality this cruel?

"I'm sorry.." was all I said as he hugged me. My tears continued to fall. Who would have ever thought that I could be this insensitive?

Is it my fault if this is my heart, until now I still love AJ even though my brain is trying to scream for you to stop.

He loosened the hug causing me to look up to see his face.

"Mitsue..." I asked him confused. I saw her tears fall one by one.

"I know you weren't happy with me. I know even though we were together, your heart still beats for him. Clare, I just don't want to hurt you," he continued as he cried. "I don't want you to cry, I don't want you to regret one day that I was with you and not him"

This time I was the one who burst into tears. "What are you saying these things?"

"I want you free, Clare" he wiped my tears even though the tears were still falling.

"Mitsue..."

"I'm letting you go, Clare. I know, this way I can make you happy because I'm going to let you go and you and AJ will be together again. I'm sorry if there were times when I didn't stop your crying. I'm sorry to everyone but I hope it will be You're happy with my decision." It was as if everything suddenly went into slow motion. He left and left me in this mess. I couldn't even speak.

I couldn't even apologize to him. I didn't even get to thank him.

Most importantly, I still don't know if my heart is ready for AJ and me to get back together.