I keep having second thoughts about whether I should continue. In fact, the staff and team are already in the Philippines and I'm the only one waiting but I feel like my legs don't want to leave.

Maybe they don't want to experience the past but it's different now. I am no longer the Clare who was hurt by AJ, I am no longer the former Clare who was a loser. He is dead. He has been buried in the pit of the past for a year. And not once, he will never come back.

I am no longer Clare, I am now Ria. Ria is brave, Ria is not weak, Ria is not defeated, and Ria is not like Clare.

Suppose you're wondering why Ria? It also comes from my name Victoria. It's just because I'm a model now I had to change my name so that no one from my past life would recognize me even Hannah and Lance.

I hid from them for a year. During that one year, I pretended to be dead. I never make them feel bad.

Honestly, the reason why I don't want us to have communication is because of AJ, AJ's family is known to be rich so even in an instant he can catch me and find out where I am in the world.

"So, why aren't you leaving yet?" I immediately turned to the person who spoke. It's Mitsue. My boyfriend, I've only been in a relationship for 5 months, but in that short time, he made me feel the love that Mark or AJ never felt.

"Because I'm not with you," I said smiling. He approached me and hugged me. I closed my eyes to feel the joy that the person I love is here.

"You know I'm next, right? You won't be able to be with me for 2 weeks. You know I still need to fix something at the company" he said with a smile and then he kissed my head. I closed my eyes.

"Alright. I'll wait for you" I let go of his hug and took my things and said goodbye to him. He waved as a sign that 'go ahead, so I followed what he said and went inside.

Hannah's Pov

"Tell me, why are we here?" Lance asked me rudely while looking impatiently at his wristwatch.

To be honest, I had no intention of going here to the airport, in fact, my eyes are still puffy. So in order not to cry again, I won't say what happened so I cried.

Earlier this day, someone texted me and introduced herself as Clare's mother. As far as I know, Clare is an orphan and only her grandmother raised her, so at first, I didn't believe it. But because the sender was naughty, I was forced to believe.

Then, Lance, I'll tell you the truth, since Clare disappeared, his behavior suddenly changed. In the past year, he has had several girlfriends and they all end up breaking up.

I just don't understand Lance why they like that. He's a heartbreaker. He wants to make all women cry. He wants to hurt all women, that's why he hurt me.

I violently wiped my tears that started to fall again. Maybe Lance noticed this so he looked at me.

"What the hell is that, Hannah? Are you crying again?" There was irritation in the tone of his speech so even though I wanted to tell the truth, I still managed to lie because even to myself I could not accept the truth.

"No. My eyes just closed a little, you know we're at the airport. The wind" I faked a laugh as I said that. I don't want to show him my true feelings. I don't want to show him that deep inside I'm hurt. Deep inside, I'm crying.

After I answered his question, he just ignored me again. I thought that, when I confessed to Lance that I like him, his treatment of me would suddenly change, but to my surprise, his treatment of me suddenly changed because suddenly one day came that he was always angry with me.

I don't know why but he is always angry with me, sometimes I thought of asking him why but every time I open my mouth it seems like no words or voice come out of it.

"What time is Clare coming?" he said impatiently. I just went. It's my fault. If only I didn't take him with me, I hope he's not impatient now.

"P-I'm sorry ---"

"There's no point. Hannah, next time don't waste my time" he promised and then he left. I was stunned and before I knew it, my tears fell one by one.

At this very moment, I can feel like my heart is breaking.

I just went there and continued to release the tears I knew I wanted to lose. I covered my mouth and cried softly. I also bit my upper lip to at least numb the pain, but there was nothing because my tears kept falling.

Maybe, it's really my fault to love and fall for a question like that..

Clare's Pov

The plane I'm on has landed. I stood up to get my things. And when I got everything I went out. While I was walking, I received one after the text messages that were on hold earlier when I was still in the air.

I stopped walking when I read the message from our photographer. He's Japanese so I talk to him in Japanese. Well, all the staff are Japanese but that doesn't mean they don't know how to speak English right? Haha.

But because within one year of my stay in Japan, I also learned Japanese or Nihongo. It's not difficult to study because the Japanese language is used in my daily life there so I'm used to it.

'Ria, where is iru? Koko ni warewe wa, subete no'

(Translation: Ria, where are you? We're all here.)

I let out a sigh before replying.

'Hai, watashi wa tsumoridesu. Mōshiwakearimasenga, watashi no henji wa kanari kettei'

(Translation: Yes, I'm on my way. I'm sorry my reply took so long. )

After I sent the message, I hid my phone in my pocket again. I don't have anything to worry about so I'll just go to the hotel I booked last night. But when I was about to walk away, someone caught my eye. Someone familiar.

I looked at him from a different angle because maybe I'm just making a mistake but no, I'm not making a mistake. It's Hannah. So what I did was I approached her but the only thing that was surprising was why she seemed to be crying. Does he have a problem?

"Hannah?" I called his name to make him look up at me. It looks like he was even shocked by me but after a few seconds, he composed himself. "Cl-clare?" I smiled at him.

"Can you sit down?" He happily nodded even though the puffiness was still obvious in his eyes.

We were covered in silence for a moment. Maybe we are both ashamed because we haven't seen each other for almost a year and in that one year we haven't received or given anything to each other, not even a text message, call, or chat.

"Clare.." he broke the silence. I looked at him smiling.

"Hmm?"

"I'm sorry, you've seen me dramatize," Hannah said while continuing to wipe her tears.

"Oh! That's okay. I should be the one to ask for forgiveness because for a year ---" I couldn't finish what I was saying because Hannah suddenly hugged me tightly. And because of that hug, I burst into tears.

Suddenly the memory of the past came back to me. With our memories together, we are happy. But just because of one year, all of that suddenly stopped and disappeared. I really miss Hannah, I miss Lance too. Even AJ -- No! No, I didn't miss her. I already have Mitsue. Mitsue loves me.

"I miss you so much, Clare"

"I miss you too much Hannah"

We had a little chat and said hello. Until our conversation fell on what happened when I lost someone.

"I went to Japan. My family has formed again." I answered him sparingly. But it seems that he was not satisfied with my answer so he asked me again.

"What happened in a year? Believe me Clare!" he replied pouting. I smiled at him.

"Actually, Hannah, Clare is dead, Ria is now me."

His eyes widened at what I said. "You're kidding, right?"

I explained to him everything why I became Ria and at first, he really didn't want to believe me but later on when I repeated it again he understood.

"Please Hannah, please don't tell anyone else. I want people to know that Clare is already dead but Ria is alive"

"But why?"

"I'm sorry..."

"Don't tell me, is it because of A--"

"Please Hannah .." and what I didn't expect, my tears fell one by one. Wait, I thought I was okay? But why is this? Why do I still feel hurt when I hear his name?

"Don't worry Clare, I mean Ria, AJ is okay, he's actually the CEO of their company. And maybe he's moved on from you because it was recently reported on TV that his girlfriend is Annika Guiterrez, the fashion designer. ."

Why am I hurt? Why am I still affected? Why is it still painful? Could it be that ... I still love AJ?