I just looked up at the sky and then I slowly closed my eyes.

Lord, I know you have a reason for everything but why do I feel this way? Why do I still feel hurt?

After my short prayer, I opened my eyes and my tears seemed to fall automatically.

How long will I suffer this?

IN THE NEXT DAYS, it seems like the scene is always the same. They will suddenly come to the shooting and I will pretend that I am not affected by AJ's presence. I'll pretend I don't know anything about the past even though the pain is deep inside.

"That was a great shot, Ria" one of our photographers complimented me. I just kissed him and took a seat at the back of the set. It's my break time and somehow I need a break.

"Clare? Oh! Sorry, I mean Ria" I turned to the speaker. I stopped suddenly. Why is AJ here? But after a few seconds, I forced myself to compose myself. And I acted like I didn't know him.

"Oh! Hello! Have you met me?" I just said. Pretending that I don't know him.

"Ah! Yeah! The first day of your shot here in the Philippines?" there is a smile on his lips. It's like he's trying to remind me that we do know each other.

"Oh! Sorry. I guess, I forgot" I pretended that I didn't really remember but instead of seeing the disappointment on his face, I saw him smile.

"No. It's okay. Actually, I really want to ask you something." in the tone of his speech he looked serious even this time I started to feel nervous.

"What is that?"

"You know, you really looked like my ex-girlfriend a year ago" I could hear my heart breaking. Does he need to tell me these things?

"Oh! Really" I pretended. Trying to perfect my act.

"Yeah. You know, She's a simple girl and you both look exactly alike. But..." her voice suddenly became sad, causing me to look back at her.

"But what?"

"I broke her heart just like that. I broke her heart like it was like something useless." my tears started to fall. A year has passed but I am still hurt. Amazing right?

"Umm, Umm. S-sorry. I need to go to the --" I was about to leave when he suddenly grabbed my hand.

"Clare, please come back to me" as he said that line, his tears fell one by one. What art is he showing me? Is he really hoping?

"So-sorry, I'm not Clare" and I struggled to try to cling to her. Maybe he noticed this so he let me go. After he let go of me, I quickly ran to the lady's comfort room.

I immediately locked the door. I faced the mirror and watched myself as my tears fell one by one.

"Clare," I said to myself "Isn't it, a year has passed? Isn't Mitsue already in your life? You must have forgotten. But why are you still crying for her?"

I covered my eyes as I continued to cry.

I still love you AJ.

I just continued to cry when suddenly my phone rang. I took it from my pocket, and even though my vision was blurry from tears, I still answered the call.

"Hello" because I didn't even bother to know who the caller was, I just answered the call.

"Baby, I missed you" I was suddenly stunned when I heard Mitsue's voice. I was speechless for about five seconds because of the shock.

"Baby, are you still there?" I wiped my tears before answering yes. He told me that he was already in the Philippines and that he was also here at the venue where we did the photoshoot.

So even though it's against my heart to come out of cr. But before I left, I intended to retouch so that somehow no one would notice that I cried.

After I got out of the car, Mitsue immediately saw me and immediately hugged me. I don't know what my reaction will be if I will be happy or hurt. Because in this place, I was with my ex-boyfriend and my boyfriend.