CHAPTER 5

People say faith leads to our destiny but I sure don't believe in destiny, our lives are the result of the choices we make in life and when it comes to love, that's when our choices matter the most, we choose when to fall in love when to let it back in our lives, who to share it with and how to define it but love doesn't seem to be that right without perfect timing. Like I said before, I do not believe in destiny but I do believe in second chances, I just have to be ready for it when it comes.

Adasa, was she a God sent, was it a sign to me that the time had come for me to move on with my life, was this a test for me? Oooh Lord, am surely confused right about now I had already begun having sleepless nights about her, sincerely speaking true me loved her, she was like a kind breathe to my soul, upbringing and energizing me, that I just wanted to say to her be mine but deep inside my heart, a person dwells among me, Silvia was her name, sometime back she left me all alone in this cruel world, giving me time to reflect on myself but the reality is I never forget her, she keeps on lingering in me.

God help me on this one, like why am I having dreams about Adasa, was it because she looked exactly like Silvia. Lord please, make this stop, I can't bear betraying my love for Silvia. I tried to avoid Adasa, overworking myself, trying to be busy so as to push away my feeling for Adasa but as days went by my love for her grew even stronger that I began thinking of myself filthy, what will people think about me? Like who gives you the right to have feelings for anyone after Silvia's death? My own consciousness was betraying me.

Adasa, was the kind of girl to go out with, she was fun, always jovial, always out to make new friends meet new people, she was fond of everyone and she became everyone's sweetheart within a short period of time. She was a total game-changer, just the kind of personality I needed in my life. We started going out as friends, hanging out together each and every weekend, going out for launch dates, dinner, parties, our friends used to say that we had a lot in common and our chemistry, it's like we were made for each other. She reminded me a lot about Silvia but I still had my doubts about if I was fair to Silvia or not.

Second chances they say are about acceptance, that's why they are so rare in life. We got to accept who we are and that what we want isn't an easy task to get, it was on this one afternoon that I happened to be at Silvia homestead, hanging out with her parent, when the real talk began. My son, "it has been long since you have been this happy, ever since the death of Silvia, I had grown fond of seeing you two together until the unfortunate, we had hoped for the better but it turns out that God has his own part to play. We are sorry that things never turned out the way you wanted them to be but we are hoping for a much brighter future. We want you to be happy son, we want you to move on with your life, time wait for no one son, you have got to propose to her, she is a good girl, she is the perfect gal for you and we don't think it will be fair to keep you two apart, Adasa, we have been watching the way you two have been looking at each other and we know, you have feelings for one another yet you are trying to fight them.

You two are only human after all and all humans are made for errors. There is nothing wrong with seeing you two share a passion and desire for each other and let the Lord be the judge, we shall be here to support you, all through, no matter the circumstances. we offer you nothing but our blessings in each and every day of your lives".