CHAPTER 2

I got to take a leave in time, a little time to think things over, I better read between the line, you have left me a widower until I get older, it has been hard seeing your restless body covered by the heap of red soil.it seems like the world evolving around me has just come to a stop. How I wish I could be the one who took a bullet for you. now you have left me all alone, with no one to hold. I don't think I can move on with my life anymore, I feel like letting go, yet I think we might not meet in the world above course I think of myself as a sinner.

Lord...oooh Lord why have you separated Me from my soulmate, in my life there, has been hardly anything going, I don't know if I can face it again, I can't stop now, I have tried so far, to change this lonely life, I wanted to know what love is, I wanted you to show me, I wanted to feel what love is but only share it with you my love, but now it has dawned on me that you can't show me anymore.

As if you knew back then you had asked me what I could have done if I hadn't met you, the baby would live each day of my life wondering where you were. I would run down the city streets, chase every fast car, do anything that is tough to do because finding someone like you won't ever be easy unless you were a lucky man. Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you my love was completely out of control.

It's not easy without you here, memories of you make me so restless, you are so close yet so far, If only I could get a chance to text you my love on the land above I will be like, hello how are you doing, my princess, my angel, my one and only, the only one girl that is missing, the way you dey bring me joy and blessing, you don't know how much I love you and I couldn't wait to say I do but only God knows the reason of it all.

You not only stole my heart, but you also took my eyes since from the first time I met you my heart skipped a beat and since then it seems I have changed, I only dream about you and I can still remember your intoxicating eyes that were my enchanter. I remember the memories we used to share, sometimes I get to read our old conversation and laugh as if you were on the other end of the phone. Friends and relatives take me for a madman when I mention you in my dreams.

If only they could know that every night in my dreams, I see you and also feel you close by watching me as I shut down my eyes to sleep, you haunt me like crazy far across the distance And spaces between us. Near, far wherever you are I believe the heart does go on. I believe if we were meant to be we shall become, love, can touch us one more time, and last for a lifetime and never let go until we are gone. Love was when I loved you, one true time I will continue holding in my life.

You, my love, will always be safe in my heart and if only I had to choose between life and death, I will choose my last breath to say I love you. Keep this in mind love my life in this cruel world starts and ends with you. As I took a handful of pills swallowed them and laid unconsciously beside the grave of my beloved Silvia.