76, Lao ma said that many women like me, he listen to the girls, such as xu qian, hong xin, xuqian really. Ah, xu qian, in the morning liu hui asked me if I was good with xu qian, I said “good P”, she said xu qian told her I was good with xu qian. But why didn’t xu qian answer my letter? I didn’t say three words this time. Too happy, think xu qian, zhang qi (Lao ma said she had someone, and 66 years of birth, I can not delay her), but xu qian, tomorrow can see her?

I woke up and couldn’t sleep after thinking about xu qian. In the morning, I met with Mr. Guan at the gate of the training school.

These days I always think about xu qian in bed. I really fall in love with her. When I was a sophomore, I fell in love with her.

I sent a letter to xu qian, saying that she was in a hurry, and that she got along with others by advantage, so I waited for her to reply.

The woman in the evening of philosophy class is really beautiful.

81, now fengping said: “you are ge yimin, did not say the wrong,” I because of trouble, did not. Will want to move some to her later, alas, how say.

I received xu qian’s letter late and was very happy (when I saw it was her letter). I was very excited for a long time and said that I was the first one to write to her. However, I disapproved of the ugly Chinese and asked her princess yun er.

In the afternoon, sunny day, I sent a letter to xu qian, saying the meaning of her love.

In the afternoon he xianmei and wei liming came to the meeting. Said the conversation, then left.

These days I often see red pants, how beautiful, good temperament, but I only have to see and yi, the world who like me passionate and can not love it. I really want to go home and meet xu qian. I just sat there with my quilt over, daydreaming.

, go to the super 86, seek along while, knocking at the door should not be for a long time, heart Peng Peng straight jump, blushed fever, I do not know what mood, which come of courage, a key on the door, can’t help but open the look, just open voice asked “who is that” a woman inside, closed the door between panic, good ring, perch knocked again, live ugly, opened the door, I face is not good, words can tell, just say “xu qian in?” her mother must have no good impression, the smoke of hell in a red shirt, she wondered along while, understand is a super classmate, was called to sit down, tea (I), she said Xu Kao town, try to zhenjiang volleyball back yet. Shi qiao hong xin came, and hong xin play, talk for a long time, I leave, see guan hong, she pre-selected, after the teacher came, talk about the meeting, then go back to sleep, really tired. I was so regretful, how to appear in xuqian home in this way, was enchanted by the ghost.

After li erqiao left, I decided to go to my brother first. Just and Zhou Daobao respectively, see a woman cry, “hey, GeYiMin”, the rise is mackay, good surprised, then saw the Feng Qingrong, a woman is wearing a red grey striped dress, wear glasses, not for the moment, a stupidly is xu qian, I will speak and Li Erqiao at noon, he left and I go to my brother there, just go, xu looked at me, may have been looked at, charming eyes to tender to intoxicate refused, I nodded to her, she seemed to smile, then don’t. I found my elder brother. I can play go. I bought some food and wine. So he sent me to the teachers, and mackay and her boyfriend to go to the movies, talk about DE jong said in He Xianmei place, saw the Zheng Renxiang and BiYunQing, find Wang Beiyu, he took me to the dormitory, know xu qian has gone, ah, so in a hurry, without saying a word, this is what the fate, I regret it, why don’t ask, don’t was 1: “when are you coming home?” I saw some photos in he-ch. There was a little photo of xu qian in a half inch. She was wearing a white shirt, with a hundred heads and a charming smile. So beautiful, so beautiful.

For some reason, I think of someone these days -- xu dandan. Could have been a high school flower, know how recently?

Today, we agreed to go to the south division with dai Lao er, first to find his classmate tang xuemei, I told her that xu dandan was my hometown, she then called, we are waiting. A moment down a beauty, tight blue jeans, white pullover, short hair, do not know, as if the feeling is xu. She was in the middle of the stairs, looking down, shy and bent. Later tang nodded and I said, “are you xu dandan?” She said yes, and her eyes are dull, I said: “do not know it”, smile, she also smile: “do not know”, so I told me that I am ge yimin, jielong people. Ntu department of Chinese 86, she just a little know, and know is ntu, high school than her one grade. Asked her about her classes, classes, reading novels. Came up with the idea of writing unpunctuated poetry.

I wrote a letter to xu in the morning, thinking it was very good, without punctuation, a paragraph of prose, a paragraph of poetry, showing my admiration since the second year of high school.

Ah, xu dandan, you can understand my feelings.

Late do not know why, played the guitar, then went to the south division to find xu dandan.

Near home is more timid.

To her dormitory building, the porter’s wife asked a girl to call her. After a while she came down, wearing a white dress, a mini, a white pullover, with flowing hair. She nodded to me first, and I was a little flattered. At first I wanted to go up, but the boys were forbidden to go up, so I went downstairs. She said she knew I was here, and I said so, walk out side by side. I asked her if she would go to nanda, she said Thursday to test the history of the revolution, tomorrow night, today (Wednesday) have to read, or not to read, to test zero, I laugh bitterly, or feet, walked out the back door side by side.

I asked Saturday to come over to play, she said maybe something, nothing can come. Then I said I could call up 110 qin shaoping (department of journalism) to come with me. Along the way, she said, “you have come to invite me over”. I don’t know what to say. Oh, she is so beautiful, so beautiful that I can’t get near her. Speaking of the movie “the chivalrous guts”, she said she did not like martial arts films, liang yusheng novel not a read, alas, how I continue to talk, then said you read books, I go to the old horse.

Long wall a while to end, the beauty is companion, time is very quick, walk in from the front door side by side, I a little angry, or sad, all the way have no words, after 1 she, I say to see qin shaoping, can come together (if have time if), she say not certain to come, don’t call, otherwise let a person wait. She also said that she often went to the piano room. I asked zhang xianliang if she wanted to read the novel, she said “good morning friend” she had, “half of a man is a woman” may borrow, I said I have, she did not speak, ah girl, why you step on the golden mouth.

Farewell, she said again.

Looking for the old horse, not, then back to the south big, all the way is quite sad, tree up and waiting for the car, as if the tree also has a spirit, but the tree growing green, I also not equal to also.

Also saw “man’s half is a woman”, carefully looked, unexpectedly very profound.

Another “love monk hate su manshu” (song yiqiao) is also very moved, is my people.

Later, xu became a member of my film and television training class (I gave her and her companions free of charge) and movie tickets for the military club.

The diary has been interrupted several times, and the reason for not writing it down is nothing but emptiness, loneliness, boredom and helplessness.

Today I picked up a pen, began a long psychological process, I think I no longer empty, I am very happy, really, from the beginning of the school to today I have been very happy, I should do what I should do, I chose language, I also want to learn foreign language, I worked film secretary general, I want to know society, know life. What’s more, my mother, han qinfen, xu haiying and jiang binh all said that I am good to close girls.

Han qinfen, it is too pure, the first time to see “red sorghum,” sitting in my dormitory, very quiet, round face, big eyes, physique elegant, after xu haiying introduced to see my guitar, han said she also, and played for a while, began to speak, very nice.

After going to see a movie, I and Lin yuehen gave them tickets to go in, we crowded in to see. After the meeting to our dormitory, I borrowed a few books, an umbrella for them, has turned out the light, han let Lin do not send down upstairs, I sent them to the school gate, all the way to talk, after they did not let to send, they left, very happy. I was supposed to visit zhang yimou the next day.

90, the next day at noon, really in the university club, descendants many, han crowded inside, must be very uncomfortable, I asked her and I together stand on a stool, really comfortable. After I first let wu tianming sign, and let zhang yimou sign, too many people, he signed in the car, a few times did not squeeze up, followed to the school meeting to calculate, after going back, han, xu already went back.

Once go to south traditional Chinese medicine with alin, xu not, then sought han, very enthusiastic, a person ate an apple, I say smoke, han ask “you smoke?” I nod, han say to send me pack, one see, “more”, super long 120! Female lily smoke, smoked a mouthful, qinrenxinpi, beautiful.

Han is too good, warm and pure feeling, especially good to talk with, such woman, I still meet for the first time. The next day, I found a lot of books, such as cen Karen, “gone with the wind” for han, han was very happy, especially happy and, after sitting for a while, she smoked one more, really enough.

I asked her to come. She said she had classes in the afternoon and wanted to take a bath at noon.

Later, han qinfen was not in the dormitory and was looking for her in the classroom. We went to the dormitory together. Then I said something to her and asked for help. Then to the eyes, ecstasy, she said did not expect, I asked her to give an answer, she did not say, only said rushed, I said the first feeling is right. She said there was a reason, she had a reason, but I didn’t let her say it and left. She wanted to stay, but I insisted.

Ah, han qinfen, I really like you, and you have agreed to me to take you alone to nanda, and you drink saliva, and give me the cup, said: “I do not mouth inflammation.”

Soon after coming back, I fidgeted and went looking for han again. I told her to wait at the gate of the school of traditional Chinese medicine with me. I told her “waiting for godot” and “station”.

She was angry. She stood behind me and said that it would be 10:30. I said I had ten minutes left. I said we were acting, a tree, a wall, a car, two people, and she said she was going, and I said that didn’t fit the drama. After I say you walk, she walked, I intentionally don’t see her, after see her walk far, then ride bicycle to catch up with her, after upstairs close the door, I knock, with the dormitory say she go to bed, tomorrow come, I say, then walk.

I called out han in the classroom, a wry smile, then invited her and xu to play mah-jongg, she said this time not to go, disrespectful, next time. I said bai xianyong’s novel brought, want to see, she said to read, and guitar also let me sell.

I wrote a love letter to han qinfen. Then she wrote back and said, “forget it. There are many better stars around me to look for.” At this point, I found her not so satisfactory. Alas, beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

The American girl, lili, is very beautiful and warm. It was my first time to meet such a beautiful and passionate girl. I gave her a ntu film card. There were only five in the whole school. Lily showed me a lot of pictures, all so beautiful, just like a star.

Jin youyan went to see the dawn free movie tickets, she was really an attractive girl from hangzhou. She felt like her name, very quiet and beautiful. Sit around all the time and smell good on your body.

Zhou jing is still very pretty. She wants to learn mahjong, go and bridge from me next week. Oh, another star, so beautiful, just in response to the words of han qinfen, there are many better stars around me to look for, but who understand me?

The troubles of the young people.

I want to be great. I want to be a skinny girl with water. I have a career, I want to make movies, I want to make money.

Can god or the gods help me? Thinking of the poem, I suddenly came up with a good sentence. Then I took my pen and my notebook and wrote two poems in the dark. I must succeed.

99, many years later, in 2004, fell in love with a network girl li Juan, a native of deyang, sichuan province, met in baidu tieba, and became a community administrator yemei, I began only as a small sister, she would be my lover, sent messages to express love to each other, both sides had sincerely paid. In order to keep people in the community, I also expressed my love to other people. Li Juan found that I was ill in hospital, and everything could not be recovered. After breaking up, she said the reason was that it was impossible to be together. I really love her, often recalled, a QQ chat, she gave me video, moved inexplicable.

100. I accompanied me and the beautiful women I loved during college. Do you remember?

(1) guan hong: I received the letter at home after graduating from middle school

Send the book

College writing

Come to nanda once, see a movie, mo melancholy lake

The winter holiday party gave me a cake.

(2) xu haiying: sophomore year, film red sorghum

Borrow books, moxi lake

Borrow a car, watch a movie

Junior year, watching movies, Chinese medicine lawn

South west building drum cafe

Give New Year CARDS, dance

Qixia hill

The great dictator.

(3) han qinfen: red sorghum

Borrow books, gulou cafe

Lily smoke, courtship, godot

Angel guitar, love letter

Sentence hospital, message.

(4) xu dandan: playground party

The film and television class

To sell tickets to the theatre

Send the car.

(5) wang qin: dawn cinema

Gulou cafe

bridge

Under the ding shan hotel

The southwest floor

The drum tower square

South garden.

(6) zhou qin: railway station

xuanwu

The cinema

Drum tower square.

(7) zhou jing: southwest building

The military club.

(8) guo di: southwest building

Take a walk on guangzhou road.

(9) deng huanjun: a letter

South park.

(10) huang li: nanchang auditorium

The military club.

(11) he bing: nanda drinks

Confucius temple rented house.

(12) CAI yan: learn magic.

(13) dong jingping: looking for shan xiaopeng

Jinling hotel

302 magic

Playing mahjong

dancing

The black sun 731

benmingnian

Martial arts.

(14) gold youyan: the movie “gold shoes”

Another night in sandusod.

Magic tricks.

(15) America fisher: the movie

The tape recorder

The parade.

(16) America’s gao baoling: drive cars

The parade

Jinling hotel

Drink coffee.

(17) Lin yi: dance

Birthday celebration

The movie.

(18) jiang xuezhang: movies

dancing

Have “6.1” birthdays, gifts.

(19) guan yu: dancing

The movie

The tape.

(20) az-cat (cao lei) : dance

To eat noodles

Birthday presents.

(21) zhu ting: eat

dancing

To send a T-shirt.

(22) chow yee mei: tickets for the concert (chorus)

Recording tape.

(23) xu qian: communication, only communication. In my eyes, she is the yamaguchi of China. As the diary is incomplete, so far it is unclear what caused the loss of contact.

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