HE PUSHED ME back in my shoulder using his finger with so much force that it made me step backwards. I hissed and glare at him but his glare is more intense.

"What? Huh?" His angry eyes, the way he breathe fast and uneven, and his smile that has no any humor.

It terrifies me. But what can I do? I deserve it, everything...

He repeated to pushed me back and even I'm trying to fight back and wiggle my shoulder to stop him, he's too strong for me.

"What the fvck?!" I shouted at him and my back hit the wall, he stop then. I felt my eyes getting blurry but I'm fighting back the tears threatening to fall.

He chuckled and tilted his head while his hand rest on the wall just beside my head and he crouched and lean to level on my face. "What? Don't I have rights to do this... Huh, princess?"

"Step back." I said in gritted teeth, my throat hurts because of trying to pull my tears back.

His smile widens and his eyes turned sharper and dangerous. He lean his face more on mine and his body pushed to mine. "And if I don't? What will you do?"

"Hiro--"

"Don't call me that!" He shouted. "That's not my fvcking name!"

I close my eyes because of his loud scary tone and my heartbeat rise than it has ever been. Loud and fast, my breathing is hitching and I feel like losing air. I lower the way I'm breathing to try to calm my heart even I know that it's impossible. I open my eyes to look at him. His face is very close and his eyes are bloodshot, I can almost see the pooling tears in his eyes but his range doesn't lessen even a little. He look so frustrated and in so much turmoil.

"What do you want?" I ask softly, almost a whisper, because that's the only thing I can ask him. I can't tell him to stop now that I can see how confuse he is despite of how angry he is.

"Tell me everything but shut your fvcking mouth." He growl in a low deep voice while looking directly in my eyes.

"What?"

"I said shut up."

But he want me to tell him everything? How could I fvcking do that?

He put his other hand on my waist and pull me more to his body. My hands authomatically land on his chest to stop him but he only glare at me.

"I said shut up." He said softly but it's far from how he look at me.

I am certain that he can hurt me physically right now judging by how he look at me.

"I'm not saying anything." My chest is heaving up and down, trying to calm but my traitor heart will never follow me.

"Keep quiet. I don't want to hear anything from your fvcking lying mouth."

I bit my lower lip and use something that I think is the only thing that I can do agaisnt him. "Let me go!" I scream at him. "What do you really want, huh?! I already give so much to you! What do you want?!" I pushed him and he step back and his hands fall on his sides.

I feel like I just given an air and I can finally breath now but still, my heart is racing fast, hard and loud. It's either because of nervous, fear, or something else, but it's definitely all because of him.

"Why do you keep doing this to me?! Is it for fun?! Why?!" I scream on the top of my lungs that I gasp for breath after.

"You're asking me why?!" He growl a shout too. "You fvcking know why! You used me! You hurt me! You left me! Now you're asking me why!" His chest is up and down and his mouth is open for breath while he's smiling and glaring at me in full rage. He laugh and it give me chills.

I gasped when he grab my neck and push me on the wall and he immediately push his body to cage mine, not giving any space. My heart quickly reacted.

"Hiro! What are you doi--"

"What is my problem..." the look on his eyes made me shut up. It's dangerously full of so many emotions but rather than that, its undeniably pure rage. "It's who is my problem..." The way he say it in a soft but cold manner made me tremble inside.

I'm panting under him. I felt like I'm losing air because of our closeness and his hold on my neck, even though it is not tight, still felt like choking me. Also, it's not helping that my heart is rapidly beating.

Why is he doing this to me? A single tear escape from my eyes. This feeling is too much for me. The anger, regret, loneliness... longing. It's all piling up and I can't control it. I can't hold it. My heart is clenching because of everything and here he is, giving me indifferent expression.

Using his tumb, he wipe the tear in my cheek and hold my jaw, then he lean more closer to my face until our nose is almost touching.

"How dare you ask like a victim..." he whispered in my lips, making me stop breathing. "You're the one who hurt me, you're the one who--" he stop himself and close his eyes so tight.

I am not the only one to blame here! And if ever... if I ever really hurt him, he hurt me more. Why am I the only one who's feeling the guilt and paying for it?

I had a chance to study his beautiful face. If its not just for my aching heart I will totally kiss him. But. You fool, Enra! How could you still think about kissing this guy? He's the enemy. You hurt him? That's only right. He ruined you. He break you. What's with loving him that you can't stop?

Yes I hurt him a little but it's nothing compared from what he did to me!

I'm ready to shout my rants at him when he suddenly kiss me.

My heart respond quickly in a fast pace because of his action. I can't breath in his deep desperate rough kiss. I tried to push him but he just hold one of my hand and pinned it on the wall while pushing me using his body and his other hand is on my nape, controlling me to kiss him the way he wanted.

I moan my protest but it just gave him an access inside my mouth.

"Stop--mn"

We are both panting when he let go of the kiss and lazily look at my lips.

"Kiss me back." he ordered breathless.

I'm breathing heavily while distracted looking at his lips too. God knows how I freaking wanted to resist him.

"Come on, we'd done this before more than kissing." he said and look at my eyes. "Why couldn't we do it again?"

My jaw hang open and I look at his intimidating eyes. Are you fucking kidding me? Because of the sudden anger that I felt, I pushed him away from me and thank god he step many times away from me.

"Jerk! What do you think of me? One of your toys?! Did you forgot? I am the boss, I am the one who will decide on this matter."

He laugh so hard and loud. I stop talking and just look at him warily. When he stop laughing, he look at me with a devilish smirk. "I will admit, you always have your decisions followed. You are the...'boss'" He laugh mockingly at the last word. "But you really are not. Who's the one always under me? Who's the one gasping, moaning, and begging under me? Who's the one screaming and getting crazy in pleasure?"

I huffed and I feel my body trembling in unexpected embarrassment and anger. My hands turn into fist while giving him a deadly glare. "Stop." My voice is trembling in so much anger.

He always drives me crazy.

"Why? It's true. You think you're the boss when you're just my slut--"

I slap him. Hard.

His head turn on the right way because of my slap and he stop talking and moving, even an inch. His body froze like he's so shocked.

"You jerk!" I shouted so loud. "Giving myself to you is the biggest mistake I have ever done!"

"You mean sleeping at random guys." He spoke and turn his head to look at me again. His eyes is ice cold and his expression is hard and emotionless. "You should be ashamed and feel sorry to yourself. You're nothing but a used trash."

My tears fell like falls while I feel like breaking slowly in my inside. My chest is tightening and my breathing is hitching. How could... How could he say that?

"Hiro..." In cracking and trembling voice, I called him. How... How fool I made myself? Why... did I...

"Truth really hurts huh? You cried." He said in a very cold manner and face void of expression.

"Asshole--"

He grab my jaw then he kissed me like before. Rough, deep, and demanding. I pushed him but I can't, he's so strong. What is he doing? Why is he doing this? How could he do this to me?

I wanna know.

He push me at the wall again and use his legs and knees to stop me from moving away from him. His hand move to trail line on my body that sends goosbumps and his lips move to my neck.

"Hiro stop!" I ordered him and push him but it seems like he can't hear me. "Hiro!"

"Shut up!" He shouted and he is suddenly pulled away from me and someone stand in front of me, in between us. His tall and broad back is the only thing I can see but I know who it is. "Terron."

"What the fvck do you think you're doing right now?" Hiro ask him in his chillingly cold voice.

"I warned you, aren't I? Touch her or hurt her again, you will going to regret it." Terron told him.

Hiro laugh and smirk at him. "You're sticking your nose in other's business again. Go away and don't interfere us. I'm not done with her." Hiro step to go to me but Terron swayed me closer to hide me in his back.

"You're done. I'm taking her now." Terron grabs my hand and walk away, taking me with him but a hand grab my other hand to stop me from going.

I look at Hiro and he look at me with disappointed accusation. "Stay here."

"She's going. Let her go."

"I said she stay here."

"Let go of--"

"I'm done!" I said.

I pull my hand from Hiro and I look at him with my teary eyes but indifferent gaze. "I wanted to say let's not see each other again but that's impossible, but... I really desperately don't want to do anything about you."

Terron pulled me to go again, this time, he put me in front and let me lead out first, but before we can get out, I heard Hiro say.

"You're my toy, my doll. You're mine until you're not ruined. By me. Even you're just a trash." He said in his dark deep voice. "Always remember that."

I want to change everything. Go back and reset it all, so that things won't go like how messed up it is right now.

I want him out of my life too.

But for some odd reason, my heart is aching just thinking about it.

Why do I have to love someone like him? Why do I have to fall to someone I know I can't have to begin with. Why does it have to be him?

He is the biggest sin I have ever done.

"Ennaira..." Terron face me and hold both of my shoulders. "Don't associate yourself to him again. It's all over 2 years ago."

Is it? Really?

Back then... does it really end?

"Please... you know it's wrong." I beg Lyon with tears in my eyes while pushing his hard body away from mine.

"I know. We know. But this feels good, aren't it?" He kissed me again and I just close my eyes and respond to him.

Yes, it feels so good that it's addicting. I moan when he enter my mouth using his tounge and he bit my lower lip then tug it and he smirk while staring in my flushed face. He chuckled.

"I miss you so much." He said and kiss me again but this time his hands started its work. He molded my mound and his other hand trailed a line to my feminity and cup it.

I jumped in startle because of what he did but he stayed me firmed on the wall using his body and continue romancing my body while he continues to kiss me.

"Mn, Hiro." I moan when one of his fingers enter my feminity while his thumb played with my jewel.

"Yes, baby?" He whispered and bit my lower lip again and then move his kisses on my cheeks and jaw, to my chin, and down to my neck, leaving a tickling shivering feeling on my skin that's travelling through my whole body.

I'm panting while my mouth is open and my eyes close, I feel so dizzy because of all he's doing to me. I didn't even notice that I'm already all naked in front of him, moaning deliriously because of his doings. Molding my body with his expert hand and biting, nipping, sucking my skin using his menacing lips, and thrusting up and down inside my feminity in a fast pace.

"Oh! Ah!"

It's a dreamy pleasurable feeling. I'm begging him to stop and continue at the same time because the pleasure is too much but I'm also addicted to it.

"Lyon!"

"Why? My baby wants more?"

Yes but...

Me and him can't be a thing. Anything.

He's angry, I'm angry. We are two constant world that when collides... will explode, with everyone in our surroundings.

We just can't be.