"AH!" I HEAR her moan while pumping up and down to his crotch.

"Fvck! Harder!" He groaned. "That's it! That's it!"

"Oh! Mn! Ah!"

It's so disgusting. I turn off the recording button of the video and walk away calmly from that dirty room. I shook my head and look at the video compilations on my phone and scroll it down. I didn't notice that this is already this many, I'm sure this is fine.

What a dirty people...

"Enra?"

I put my phone on my pocket quickly and look at my grandmother calmly even I'm a little startled. She just walk out from her room. "Grandma..."

"You're still awake? It's midnight." She said.

My grand mother is in her late 60's. Old but still looking beautiful even in her wrinkles, she's also still strong but she has heart disease and other mild problems in her health.

I smile at her. "Nay, you're the one who should be asleep. It's normal for teenagers to be still awake in this time. Rest, Nay, I'll get you some water." I push her lightly to her room.

"Oh okay." She let me push her inside and lay on the bed beside my grandfather and I put the blanket on her body.

"I'll get your water." I said.

"Okay, but did your auntie already come home?" She ask.

I remember the dirty scene in that room earlier. "She still didn't, but I think her husband is fine without her tonight."

"What do you mean?"

"I will get you water. I'll be quick." I get out of my grand's room and hear the moan on the far room.

Shameless. Worthless. People.

I get my grandmother's water but when I enter their room, she's already asleep. I just put the water on their nightstand and get out of the room.

"Your mother is getting married again with her new boyfriend. Did she already introduce you?" Untie Lynly ask me once when we are having dinner.

I shook my head and continue eating my food.

"Tss, that kid doesn't know anything. Die in front of her and she will see nothing." Uncle Jun laugh.

This house is my Auntie Lynly's house that's occupied by 3 set of families. First, My grand parents. Second, their son (uncle Jun) and his wife (aunt Beth) who has four children. Third, my grand's 2nd daughter (auntie Lynly) with her husband (uncle Redge) and they have three children.

"Hows your sleep aunt Beth, uncle Redge? I didn't sleep well last night." I said nonchalantly.

"Why? Is there a problem last night, Ennaira?" Aunt Lynly.

Aunt Beth laugh exaggeratedly and glare at me secretly. "I sleep well last night. I don't know what's the matter, you are asking random questions again."

I smirk. "I'm being a weirdo again, I guess. I'm sorry."

We continue eating and after that Aunt Beth tell me to wash the dishes and while washing she slap me and told me to shut up and threaten me that if I won't shut up she will hurt me.

It's so funny I wanted to laugh but I keep it to myself. She's really... threatening me using that? What am I? A kid? But okay, let's play along.

I have more bigger plans anyway and I can't blame them to rely on that threat because that's what they are using to me since I was a kid.

Hurt me.

"I'm sorry." I said and look down, continuing my work.

But hurting me doesn't scare me. Never.

"Don't you ever tell a soul about it."

Nonsense. Who's soul is willing to hear that? Besides, did she forgot that I have no friends or anyone at all? Idiot.

I nod obediently like a good child and she hit my nape before she take her leave. Tears started to fall from my eyes after she left but I can't help but laugh because it's so really funny.

Let's see what will happen to you.

He suck and bit my neck then palm my mound roughly. Fvck! I moan and close my eyes. We are laying on the bed, at some expenssive hotel room that he rented, having a good weekend together like, playing with each other's body while watching a movie, but I'm not sure if we understand a thing about what's going on in that movie.

"You're stressed?" He ask and look at my face but still molding my mound and pinching the hard bud on top of it.

I chuckled, trying to forget the shivering sensation from his touch. "You're curious about me again? Are you always like this with your girls?" I ask in between my slight panting.

His other hand move to grab my inner thigh and tease my entrance but not really touching it. I bit my lip because of anticipation.

"Yes. When the girl is very mysterious, I get really really so curious." He answered me and put one of my hard buds inside his warm mouth.

"Oh!" My hands reach for his head and my hands tighten on its strand when he suck and bit my hard bud. "Sht!"

He chuckled and teasingly moan while sucking it and look up at me with a seductive stare then one of his fingers finally enter me then take it out naughtily and stroked his clothed member it between my legs like he's really fvcking me.

"Dang it!" I gasp. "You're so--"

"Sexy? Yes, I know babe." He chuckled and continue his erotic move.

"Pervert."

He wink at me. "Just for you."

I roll my eyes and bit my lip when he played with my mound again. He's such a tease, damn this guy.

He step out from the bathroom with only a white towel lazily hanging on his hips while I am already dressed and ready to go, I'm just waiting for him. I get my bag and took a spoonful on the cake he ordered.

"You're going now?" He ask after looking me.

I nod and chew the cake. "Yes. My mother wants to see me."

"Okay. Just text me tomorrow if you're free." He said and sit on the bed then dry his hair using another towel.

I look down at his perfect muscled chest and abs and then to his biceps. I smirk and get the apple on the fruit basket and took a bite in it. "How old are you?" I suddenly wonder.

I think he's years older than me but I think he mentioned that he's still studying like me. Maybe he's just a year older than me? I don't think so. I think he's much older.

He stop drying his hair to take a look at me. He teasingly smirk. "Woah! Are you having feelings for me? You're asking now, huh?"

Assuming pervert.

"Shut up. I just wonder." I chuckled in his amusing idea. He hope. No matter how many times we have sex I will never have feelings for him.

"Tell me your name and I will answer you." He negotiate with a playful smirk.

Tss. I turn around to go, not bothering to say goodbye because his deal isn't worth it.

He laugh. "I'm 23."

I stop walking and look at him with unbelieving expression. "No way..."

So he's really just 3 years older than me?

"Yes way." He chuckled.

I look at his body again. Is he fvcking serious? He have that body already in this early age? "You're kidding."

His brows shot up and look at his own body. "You never seen naked boys in their 30s that's why."

It made me confuse. "What do you mean?"

"You can't believe I'm just 23 and I already have this body. FYI young lady, my body isn't fully matured yet but I really have that oozing sexual appeal that's why I look really hot. Huh! Wait for my 30s, I'm sure you will drool."

I still don't get it but it's not necessary so I roll my eyes again. "I'll go now. I will leave you with your future fantasy for yourself."

He laugh. "That's not a fantasy. That will really happen so stay tuned."

"Yeah whatever." I wave at him as a goodbye but he stop me.

"Wait."

I look at him again, annoyed. "What!" I snap but he just cheekily smiled.

"Aren't you really wondering about my name? I have the coolest name ever. Just exchange our name. why aren't we allowed to know it?"

I sighed. He's really a stubborn one. I notice this about him and once he like something, he won't stop until he get it. So persistent that it's so annoying. His complete attitude is just simply annoying. Annoying. Annoying.

"We have a deal. Once we knew each other's name we will erase each other in our lives like nothing happened. And, if you really damn wanna know, why don't you investigate about me, then just hide that you know my name? Just tell me when you want out in this. It's so simple."

He pouted and give me a sad puppy look. "I wanna know it directly from you."

I sighed and roll my eyes for the nth time that I'm with him. "Okay. I will tell you my name but after that we are over."

He grimaced and glare at me. "Aish! I'm still enjoying you. What the fvck?"

"Then just shut the fvck up!" I snap again and turn to go but he talk again. He's really testing my patience right now huh?

"Hey!"

"What?!" I gritted my teeth and glare at him.

He grin so wide. "You really hate commitment?"

Yes. I do hate commitments very much. It's just a nuisance. "Why?"

"Just asking, chill." He chuckled and stand up then hug me suddenly.

"What's your problem now?" My furrowed because of his action.

"You don't like this? It's a girl and boyfriend thing."

I groaned and push him away. He's doing weird things and asking nonsense things that he is curious about. Again. "You're damn annoying." I glare at him once more but he just answered me by a laugh.

"I know I am annoyingly handsome. Now, do you want me to give you a ride on wherever you are going?"

It's good that he have use in comes to transportation.

I waited for him to get dressed so he can drive me to my mother's house or to be exact, to my mother's boyfriend's house who is her future husband now, and soon ex.

"Address?" He ask when we are inside his car.

"I'll just tell you where to turn."

"Damn, you're so hard."

"Shut up."

He grin. "No way."

I sighed. He's really only good in bed.

"What if we accidentally know each other?" His random questions again while driving.

With already bored look, I look at him. "There's no way that will happen, unless you intentionally find me. We've been having sex for 2 years, did our personal lives crossed? Not, right?"

"We are meeting in place to place sometimes."

"And that's it. Now please shut up."

"Why do you always want me to shut up?"

"Why can't you just shut up? I like peace."

He laugh. "I like talking."

I groan painfully and lean my head on the back rest. "You're stressing me out."

He stop the car at the sidewalk and then remove his seat belt and turn to me.

"What are you doing?" I ask him in confusion.

"You're stressed, let's have sex here."

"What?!" I ask in horror but he's already attacking me with his lips. "You--" I push him away and thank goodness he back away. "What the fvck? You're crazy! I won't have sex with you here!"

He laugh in amusement and sit on his seat again. "Tss, you're no fun. I'm just messing with you."

This! "Crazy jerk." I murmured and shook my head while he's laughing and starting the car.

But thinking about it. If he cross path with me, the real me... what will happen?

I like his company, it will be a shame if I will stay away from him then. But nah, it's impossible to cross path with him.

He's out of my league. He seems so rich, judging by the hotel room that we are renting every time and this aston martin that we are currently riding.

It's close to impossible.

We the dinning area. I'm with Mama and her boyfriend, Michael Noretti. We are silent as we wait for the maid to complete the course that they are putting carefully at the long table. Michael is sitting on the master's chair while I am at his right and Mama is in my front.

They are smiling and chatting to each other while I'm surfing at the internet at my phone, but my mind isn't focus on my phone, it's thinking about this house, I mean mansion. I already knew about my mother's boyfriend because they are already a gossip a month ago when Mama started dating him. He's a businessman, in his early 40's while my mother's age is 35, he owns something big based on what I heard, and he has kids from different women but he never marry anyone.

I wonder if his marriage with my mother now is true or until when it will be true. It would be funny once they broke up. I'm sure my mother will get so many money from him and then run away. That's very typical of her.

When the maid is done, Michael started to approach me. "So, hi! It's nice to finally meet you, Ennaira." He have a warm smile and approaching voice. Sweet and smooth talker, but I know it's just a front. I see why he is a businessman.

I smile kindly too. "Likewise, Mr Noretti. I heard many thing from mama, about you." I said softly. That's a lie obviously. I don't have a good relationship with my mom since her first marriage.

We never talked unless she wants something for me to do or she needed anything.

He smiled brightly and look at mom happily. "Really?"

Mama smile sheepishly and wink at him. "I'm so in love, can't help it."

You can see where did I get this talent of being a good liar. I smirk bitterly in secret. It's a sore in my eyes to see myself in her. Since I was a child I'm always getting compared to her, her face, her actions, her attitude. It's sick to be compared to this kind of person, but I guess it's true. The fruit from that tree is just like that tree. The mango tree can't make an apple fruit.

Hard truth, hits hard.

"I'm so in love with you too. We're in the same page." He said to mama sincerely.

The emotion on my face suddenly gone and I look at Michael intently. What is this? He look so sincere on what he said.

I look at mama and saw her smiling happily, a real smile of happiness that I've never seen before. It's irritating.

Hah! Don't make me laugh now. Don't tell me she suddenly met her the "one"? It's a joke...

She of all people. I've seen him with differently guys, she's not affectionate or loving but still she can manage to make those guys crazy over her and she can play them with her fingers. She will get so many things to those guys then leave once she's done or she find another interest. There are some guys that she seems to really like but from some I can't understand reason, she can't stay in one guy.

And in this case, I'll bet there's a 49% chance that they will last long. Just last long because making my mom stay is a very difficult thing.

I cleared my throat to get their attention. When they look at me, I look at my mother. "Ma, did he already met my sisters and brother?"

"Sisters and brother, Ericka?" Michael turn to my mom again.

She smile at him. "My other children that I'm telling you about. Josh, Ashly, and Kylie."

"Oh, them." Michael look at me with a proud smile. "I'm happy to know that you treat them as your real siblings, others will call them steps or halfs."

I don't know but I feel embarrass and shy because of his comment. I look down at my food that I started eating earlier. "Even we don't have the same father I am still their older sister. Full blood siblings or not, we are still siblings."

He reach for the top of my hair and mess it like it's natural for him and giggle with my mother while I stilled because of what he did. I'm not used to someone do those kinds of things to me. Things that only "close people" is allowed to do. But I think I am the only one who's thinking about it because they are already in their animated chattering.

What the hell is wrong with this guy? I don't like him.

Over this dinner, Michael continue to ask me things about me, like; what's my favorite food, hobby, preferred movies and etc. He's totally weird. He acts like we are close and I hate it.

He also talk about my siblings making them his own if it would be possible and he will surely get them to live in this mansion, he said. I'm fine with it. My sisters and brother will experience to live in this kind of house. Fancy but cozy. Elegant and warm. It's a nice mansion for a family, actually.

"How about you, Ennaira? Do you want to live here?" He ask.

I laugh at it. It's ridiculous. "I'm fine living without my mother." By this comment she shut up.

This topic brings back the past huh? Ma? I look at my mother and she avoid meeting my eyes. We know each other too well, because we're the same, reason why we can't stand each other.

"If you will excuse me, it's getting dark. I need to go home." I excuse myself.

"But it's already late. You should stay here for the night." Michael invited but no, no thanks.

I shook my head. "I'm used to dark, don't worry. I have class tomorrow and I didn't bring extra uniform with me."

"Okay, but please let my driver drive you home."

"Thank you, Mr Noretti."

"You can call me Michael, uncle, or Dad even. Whatever you prefer." He laugh heartily.

I prefer Mr Noretti though, but well. "Thanks uncle Michael."

"You're always welcome."

On the way to my Aunt's house I think about that dinner over and over again. He seems a good guy even I don't like him. I just hope my mother won't hurt him much, he's a good guy to just get broke by her.

I close my eyes and let the city lights' relection passed on my face.

One word to describe my life. Tiring.

I have a very boring life. Nothing surprises me anymore; when my day is bad or didn't go out well, that's really typical and normal. All I can do is just accept that day because since I had my own mind it's been like this, completely normal and not surprising, that's why it's so boring. But in general standards, my life is far from being boring, it's like I'm inside of some drama. Everyday there's a show, issue, and happening. I don't know if I'm cursed or what but one thing is confirmed. Living a peaceful life is not for me.

Pain is chained in my soul.

Hurt is part of my life.

And loneliness is my life.

I tried to be happy but you know? You can't run from your fate.

Once you're entangled in a cursed, freedom will be an impossible word for you. You will be imprisoned on the dark whole your life. This is what I get for being born by sinful persons.

A slut and a cheater met, the result is a mistake... and that mistake have to pay for being born.

I close my eyes so tight and let myself ate by the darkness and I remember a memory.

"Ahh!" I shouted and put my arm on the stinging part of my leg. I cried more because of the pain, I feel like my skin is cut and bleeding but there's no wound.

It hurts so much.

"You will do it again? Huh?!" He shouted and hit me again with the metal tube.

I shouted and scream in pain when it hit me again. I wanted to beg and tell him to stop but I also don't want to. I don't want to give him the satisfaction. I held my tears back and act like it doesn't hurt. I just close my eyes for a second before I glare at him with bloodshot eyes.

"Look at this ungrateful child!" He shouted in anger and hit me again in consecutive times.

I bit my lip to stop myself from screaming in pain anymore but he nust continued.

"Stop it already!" She shouted and hold his hand to stop him. "Do you plan on killing her?"

Why don't you just kill me?

"This child is always getting me in my nerve! She's bullsht! Just like her parents! There's no difference at all!"

Yeah... I'm just like my parents who's hated by everybody. I have no difference. Maybe I'm worst.

"Please... get me out of here..." I'm laying on the dark and the only thing I can see is the light from the small hole on the wall. I'm crying because of fear and pain. "Please.." I reach the hole and try to look outside from it but all I can see in another wall. "Ma... Pa... Grandma... please..."

Someone help me out of here. Please...

I open my eyes and see the city's night lights. This world is too beautiful for me to live in. For us to live in.

"People are this planet's waste, don't you agree?" I mumbled without thinking.

"Ma'am?" The driver look at me on the rare view mirror so I look at him too and smile.

"Nothing. Don't mind me."

Out of all my days, this day is quite the most peaceful. But I know better. I'm sure tomorrow will be a disaster.

My gut feel is always right.

I'm lazily looking outside the window when our homeroom teacher go inside the classroom. My classmates immediately tamed and sit on their chair while Mr Velasco is positioning himself in front of the class.

"Class!" He started and we all look at him in silence but of course there's those stubborn kids who won't stop talking just to annoy the teacher. "Silence. We had a transfer student today."

"Hi, I'm Lyonnaire Knightly, nice to meet you all. Please be nice to me." That playful deep and sincere baritone voice.

Impossible...