We arrive at the house. The big house by the beach that used to be ours, now it's just mine. As once the paper say it was our name, I changed it to only Demyan and he have all the right to this house when he grow up and at legal age when he have an ID. I haven't tell Alyona about it yet, but I will tell her around this moment. She has the right to know everything related to Demyan. Besides, it haven't been legalized officially, I still need her signature for the paper to be legalized.

We hopped out of the car, carrying Demyan in my arms as we walk to the front door. It feels so right to come home with her by my side.

I push the doors open and our eyes meet with a clear big glass with the beach view. That's why we love the house so much. Because, when we come home from a tiring day, the first thing we see is the beach view. The window has the perfect view from side to side.

"You missed the view?" I ask, glancing at her to see her already staring ahead at the sea. "Let's put Demyan to bed. I still have his crib in my room. I haven't had the change to move it to his room, I like looking at it. It’s just feel like he is there." I sounded so pathetic by saying that. But I do my best to feel their presences around the house everyday as if they were living with me.

We walk up to the stairs to the very last floor of our house. Our house is a four storey house which contain the three floor in sight, the last floor is underground. In the top floor, there is only two rooms. The master bedroom that belong to us and the other room is Demyan's. The rooms separated by a space that we use as a living room for us. There's only couches and coffee table facing the beach view. Late night, we both love to sit and have a small talk on the couch while staring out to the sea. It was always peaceful and calm our minds out.

"You said you are going to take care of him, right? Then you go to your room, I'll be in the meditation room." She tells me. Without waiting for my answer, she walk back down. We were half way to the top floor, meaning we have walked one floor. But she decided to go somewhere else. I watch her walk down, all the way down to the underground floor.

Sighing, I keep on walking upstairs to our floor. Going to my room, the same atmosphere hit me. Just the wind that always reminded me of how alone I am in this house. But having Demyan in my arms right now make it a little difference, just a little.

"You know what, son? You have to help me make your mother wants to stay here longer. So I can spend more time with you without your grandfather interfering us. When she said she wants to stay here, your grandfather can't say no or even just say a word. He's too much of a softie for his daughter underneath the ruthless look he always shown in front of people, even me. So you are my only chance, son. Help me here, okay?"

When I finished ranting, I just realised how stupid I sounded. Talking to a sleeping baby while talking like to a normal person. I'm glad that nobody watched me ranting like that.

I lay my son on his crib that we bought him before he was born. This is his first time trying it, I hope he like it and sleep well in it. I am hoping he can cooperate with me and not wake up all of sudden. Because I need a moment with Alyona alone. Little guy, please don't ruin this for Dada.

For half an hour, I sit on the edge of the bed just watching him sleeping. It was quite an experience for me. I don't mind to watch him sleeping all day. Looking at him is like looking at the both of us. So magical.

After assuring myself that he won't wake up anytime soon. But just in case, I called Viene to go up here to my room. Within minute, she knocked on my door.

I walk up to the door, opening the door and saw her standing in front of my door. "Viene, I want you to watch my son while he is sleeping. If he awakes, just call on the meditation room. Understand?" I look at her in no joking manner.

"Yes, Sir. I'll watch Mr. Angelo junior. I can't wait to finally meet him." She excitedly said. I know that for a fact. Viene is longing to meet Demyan and she was very disappointed when she knew I'm not bringing him home and not only just him, but her as well.

"Very well. I'll leave you with him." I nod my head at her, allowing her to come in to my room. I'm not usually let her come in to my room except for cleaning the room once a week. That's just it, you can see and feel how lonely I am.

I use the elevator to go down faster. I just hope that she is still in the meditation room. That's her favourite room to get back on her focus and to freshen. Once I get to the first floor, the entire floor feels warm. The temperature down here is following the weather out there. Because we have infinity pool that goes from inside to the outside. So we don't really control the temperatures.

Going to the meditation room which located in the corner of the floor, I saw the light’s still on. She's still in there and my mind couldn't help to wonder, is she doing yoga or is she having a serious meditation? Who knows.

As I was about to push the door open, it didn't move. That means she lock the door from the inside. I press the bell button on the side of the door that will rings the inside.

"Dave, what are you doing here? Where's my son?" She demands me. Her eyes looking at me with a hard stare. She have walked up to the door.

"He's with Viene, he's safe. Can I join you?" I eyed the room where she was a minute ago.

"I can't stop you, can I?" She moved away from the door to make a room for me to walk in. But I didn't move a muscle. "What now, Dave?" She ask in annoyed.

"I'm not going to bother you if you need to be alone. Al, my respect for you never changed a bit. I will never force you to do anything. I'll stay out if that's what you want." I said in wounded voice. Seeing her act like that is like seeing someone new. I don't want that, I only want her. Her truly and only self.

"Come in, Dave." She invited me. She even put a fake smile on. How far did I changed her?

With a sigh, I walk in to the meditation room. The room is quiet like how it supposed to be. On the carpet, lays a bottle of water which I'm guessing is hers. I sit down in front of her sitting pillow. I had grabbed mine when I walked in. A moment later, she join me, sitting back on her pillow.

"What is it, Dave?" Alyona ask while she is getting back to her form of meditating. She takes a deep breath, closed her eyes, and start doing her thing. But I know she is listening. Watching her meditating like this is making my mind flooded by the good memories.

The temptation and desire in me just bubble up and needed to be freed.

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I was so excited to publish this story. But, I'm a little disappointed here.