Antony’s pov

Today I found my mate. You will think that’s a good think especially because my mate is someone I had a crush since I can remember my self.  I never met a more beautiful girl in my life, her crystal blue eyes had me hooked every time I was looking at them and her lips oh don’t let me start about that. I was always like her puppy until I couldn’t take it anymore so I had to stop hung out with her. I had to get over her.

I had to push her away or else I would have sawed my feelings. Before you ask me why this is wrong, let me tell you my three reasons. For one, we are like a family. Two, her brother is my best friend and my future alpha. Three, if we were dating and she found out another mate I don’t think I could restrain myself from killing him.  I would have hated him only because he wasn’t me. I get furious only at the thought of someone else touching her. 

I was mad all the time because of her, because I wanted her and I couldn’t have her. Especially when Peter flirted with her I was so mad that I broke many things. I even tried to forget by being with other girls, but no, no one can compete with her. And to make it even worse my wolf didn’t like any of these girls. But he liked Amy for some reason even before she turned out to be our mate. At first, I thought that he liked her because he was practically family but I guess it was because she is our mate, even if we didn’t know it.

 I thought maybe when I found my mate these feelings would go away. I was wising every year that she will be my mate but I thought that the moon goddess wouldn’t bless me with such a wonderful mate. I am unworthy of her and I don’t know how I got so lacky to get a mate like her. Oh, wait not so lucky, she’s gonna reject me. 

I can’t blame her even if she does reject me. I made my own bed, I wasn’t treating her well and I know that but I really needed space or I would had explored. If I knew she was my mate, I would never have pushed her away and tried to make my feelings go away. 

I was out of her door, her cent was driving me crazy ‘’ please open the door we have to talk’’ I was standing here for 3 minutes ‘’I know you are there I can smell you’’ another five minutes past ‘’open up or I’ll break the door’’.

She left me no choice but to broke the door. ‘’what the hell?’’ She yelled at me and she had mad written all over her face. Her eyes were red from crying. I didn’t like to see her like that so I tried to hug her. I wanted to comfort her but I also needed her but she put her hand between us in order to keep me in distance.  When we were little I always comforted her when she was sad or had a nightmare. Every kid goes to his parents when they have a nightmare and needs to feel safe but not her and neither did i. We both wanted each other when we were sad or frighten. 

‘’why are you here?’’ she asked me, looking me in the eyes searching for my emotions.  I didn’t know what to say or how to express all my feelings. I had suppressed them for so long and now I didn’t know where to begin.  ‘‘Are you here for us to reject each other and move on?’’ how could she thought like that? I was here to make things work not to reject each other. ‘’ What? No, of course not ‘’ I replied going to take her hand but she took it away. 

‘’So why are you here’’ she asked like It wasn’t obvious that I was here to make things work out between us. ‘’Because you are my mate’’ I said with love in my voice. ‘’Right, not interested’’ she replied so coldly breaking my heart in pieces. Not only me but my wolf was heartbroken too and he was weeping at my head.