I knew what my purpose was but I needed to be sent off in the outside world to see whether I am really for the lay community as a sister or in the world to bring the good news for the people God will send me to help, inspire and lead.

            After months of being out of the community, I felt awful, lost and alone.  Though my family helped me get through the hurt, change and longing to serve God. Have you ever felt that emotion, that empty feeling that something was missing. I felt like I didn't belong in the world anymore and I wasn't really planning to be one with it as well. I forgot what it's like to live as a regular girl in the world where I need to mingle and get along with, ah people!, hehe. I was never a people person when I was young. My parents brought me to be independent and learn how to work hard for what we want in life. I believed that I am pretty, smart and excellent in everything I do. But I guess when I came out of the community that changed. I became shy and as if now without a voice of my own. I am an obedient child ever since I can remember but I always do what I wanted to do and followed my heart where it led me to, even when I joined the lay community I felt confident I will make it. I didn't make it but it didn't stop me to look for opportunities that will match my eagerness and drive to make a difference in the world. I was down and defeated not becoming the servant of God inside the cloister. But I vowed that I will become his servant or follower and preacher outside the world whatever it takes  and  I did.

                Since I didn't finish my college education, I decided to find a job and I landed one in a call center industry. Here I was taught to sell products and services hard core and it gave me the boost to start my new life as a regular person and not a sister inside the community praying, and giving ourselves to God every day. Here in my cubicle with my headset and computer, doing multi-tasking jobs, I sell, help and support my clients whether it be in a phone company, internet line or airlines. I was good and still is a powerful person in persuading, making sales and making clients happy with the work I do. I was good at it and I mastered it in many years I have been doing the same old thing time and again. I earned a lot but got bored with doing the routinary hussle. I switched to day jobs but it made no sense. I still longed for the rush and passion in talking to people on line and in the BPO line of business. So I decided to put up my own call center company. It's a multi-million dollar business that I am not intending to waste away so I hired and partnered with the best of the best in the industry. This started and opened a new deal for me, a great opportunity to meet new people, collaborate with heads of companies, and be partners with those who I trust the most and those with oozing talent but who I don't like personally. But since she brings out the best in me I still partnered with her.

              Elizabeth Lovechild, shouting her name on my head, Lizzzz!, Oh, you're here.

Yup, our old Johnny couldn't come to the meeting so I decided to join on behalf of him. He is pretty busy with a new client and it is an asset to ours. If…you don't mind me filing in for him?, the annoying woman added smiling devilishly.

                I I totally hate you, I said in my mind, Aha!, yes, I don't mind really, smiling at her with a smirk.

Okay guys since John isn't here, let's star with the meeting and let me start with  our sales for the month to date….blah, blah, blah! A never ending story telling of the ups and downs of the business, sales, marketing and customer service issues needed to resolve. No complaints yet so I am readying my self for those in future.

                So, you're saying that we need someone to train our agents in the English language right? Liz butted in.

                Yes, Liz and would you happen to know anyone in particular?, I added nicely.

Victory Winer, Victory Victory, Victory, I am the one you're looking for. I graduated with honors majoring in English and took my Masters at a reputable university, so that would count me as perfect of the job. Since my buddy Johnny is a partner for this company, I can lend a hand to help you out in that area, she said it with so much gusto I wanted to vomit, really. Ah, yes but is there any other options, guys speak up, we have at least ( turning to my copy of the minute attendance) 11 people here to discuss or vote for the perfect trainer for our company?, right?, I asked and no one seems to respond and all are just looking at each other. Hmm, I wonder what Liz did to  have the majority agree for her to be the lead trainer for the company. Okay if none disagrees, Liz then will be our Lead Trainer. I will personally supervise her on this. So if there are no questions, the meeting is adjourned, I added as disappointed as ever, finding myself being close to the girl I hated the most.

                Why would you not want me to be in the training department Beck?, Is it because of our past?, Liz reiterated with her head up high and both hands on her waist. We didn't have one Liz so lose the air? Besides you didn't want me right so nothing happened!, I added making a face at her.

                Elizabeth Lovechild was the hottest girl in school. I had a crush on her since she was a popular cheerleader and a known lesbian hitting on all cuties in our block. Or let's just say since she was popular and a beautiful girl, almost all boys and girls like or let's make it nicer, adore her that time. I was just a simple, shy but smart kid in school. I think the smartest one alive in our city. Hehe. Well it's just a small town but we are very close-knit. The thing is when she knew that I was head over heels with her she asked me out one time. I didn't know she knew that I love her a lot. I think my buddy, stupid Johnny gave me away. He said Liz gave him a drug on his beer that he told her everything she wanted to know about me. And I wondered why bother, right, since I am just a helpless, worthless bug for her that she can kill whenever she liked. Okay, so then, Liz invited me to go out with her and she kissed and touched me all over the place. Then told me that I am disgusting and all. I felt my cheeks burn and ran outside of the party where  Jhonny  and I were purposely included so that they can humiliate us. I didn't come to school for a week because of that.

But rumors died down and bullies got other people to mess around so I graduated in high school with honors. And promised to myself that I'll have my revenge. A sweet revenge to get back at those who bullied and tortured me mentally before. However, will I be able to pull it off when Liz, whom I really hate said when we graduated college, that she loves me and apologized for everything she did because during those times, she liked me already but she didn't know how to deal with it and said mean words to get to me or get a reaction since I was emotionless or aloof. Well, after the embarrassment who would be happy to talk with her or her buddies that time. Anyway, now that my company is booming and she is within my reach to …..to what! I don't know take advantage of, I wonder what I'll do to humiliate her in return. But that was a long time ago. However I still feel the hurt and the shame. I need to get back to her. What will be the best way to do it. Hmm!