CHAPTER TWO

I sighed, I was still alive... My left cheek numb from pressing them on the cold bathroom floor all through the night. I groaned, the events of yesterday came crashing down on me, even after all these while, mom was still the same, she still did not like me so much, I knew she would deny and say she loved me, but I believed in actions mostly, not words, any body could say a thing, but not every body could do that thing. I messed up her family anyway, she built it, I broke it, she had every reason to hate me.

Picking myself up from the bathroom floor was not hard, infact it was easy, easier than the thought of going to school, easier than the thought of seeing my mom again. The cold tap water hit my skin, I didn't even wince, I was used to the pain, I welcomed it, but it was not enough to numb my reality.

I took a quick bath, running my hands through my hair, I planned on getting a haircut as my hair was getting out of control, I had taken Mom's messy brown curls, but mine was way Fuller and longer, people always admired my hair, it got up to my waist, but cutting it was better, than no one would notice me.

My clothes consisted mainly of jeans, pinafore jeans, skirt jeans, jean pants, and they were app gotten by Will, when I was getting ready for high school. He said that was what the high school kids wore, I refused to wear them, but he didn't let me, I had to wear them. I swallowed, the nostalgic feelings were back, and so early in the morning. I waved it off, and quickly got dressed in a baby pink sweater and a blue jean pants, when I looked in the mirror, all I could see was the fattest girl in high school. I was used to it, in fact I dreaded mirrors, but this one happened to be right in front of me, I just had to see for myself.

It was my turn to drive the car today, when I got downstairs, mom was not in the house, she had gone to the office, I sniffed, it was not like I was not used to it or anything, even if I tried to deny it, I still hoped. And it still hurt. The time was still a bit early, so I decided to have breakfast, not like I was completely avoiding Heather and her friends, ok maybe I was, but it is not my fault, I mean who wouldn't?

I drove to school in mom's Tesla model X SUV, I actually didn't mind as much as my class mates did, they minded a lot, calling me different names because of the car, but I didn't care, as long as it got me to school and back, I was fine.

"Hey Granny!"

Was the first thing I heard as I got to school, this was followed by laughter. I sighed, well here we go again. I found a spot to park the car, away from the boys that were laughing, I didn't want them to harm the car, in a bid to make a joke. I was not in the mood. They had done it before, calling me names, then scratching the car, it took weeks for mom to stop sighing any time she looked at the car.

I got down, trying to avoid them, all of the bullies, yeah I was bullied even in this school. I always attracted them some how.

I went straight to my locker, I had forgotten to get my maths note from there yesterday, and I did not want to go to my locker, because it was right next to Ciara, the "Queen Bee" of our school. My luck was cursed, too cursed to be real.

"Hey Granny!" A shrilly, obviously fake voice greeted from beside me. I closed my eyes for complete twenty seconds. I wondered who tampered with my luck, I had to run into her so early in the morning.

"Aren't you going to greet me back?" She tauted with a fake pout. We had gone through this before, I knew what she was going to say before she said it, and it was true.. so I didn't try to correct her.

"Good morning Ciara." I greeted dryly.

She beamed, and I shrinked.

"Would you like to seat with me at lunch today?" She asked.

She has said all manner of degrading things to me since I moved here, but she had never asked me to seat with her before.

"Are you making me wait?" She snapped. Her smile was replaced by a vicious look. It was her look of terror.

I looked around, I knew nobody would help me, they were anxiously waiting for the show to begin, I was praying for Heather to come by, she would help.

"I uhh.. I can't.." I whispered. Fear gripped me as the words left my lips, what would she do to me? Will she ask me to walk around the school semi naked, it had happened before. Or would she ask me to sit in the cold and eat my lunch? I blinked, it was not cold yet.. so no.

She stared at me.

"Are you refusing my offer?" She asked.

The school was silent, pin drop silence. Like everyone was waiting for some thing to happen, something terrible to happen to me.

I swallowed.

"No..yes.. I mean no.." I stuttered.

I cursed myself for being weak, if only I could stand up for myself. But I could not, I was a coward..

"Then?" She asked impatiently.

My eyes caught a movement, it was Heather's friends. I was grateful, so grateful. I pleaded with my eyes once we had eye contact, I begged them to help me since I was to coward to do so myself.

They saw Ciara, and looked away. My heart dropped, of course they wouldn't care. Ciara saw I was not looking at her, she followed my eyes, and saw I who I was looking at. She smirked, and signalled them to come, and they came smiling, who wouldn't? The 'Ciara' was calling them.

"Will you guys eat lunch with me? It seems your friend would only eat if you do." She said.

I looked at her, what was she planning?

Heather's friends looked ready to combust with excitement. They giggled and nodded vigorously. She smirked.

"Very well, we shall see at lunch time today." She said looking directly at me, sending shivers down my spine.