Chapter 5: Am I Worthless?

I couldn't believe what my eyes just saw. Two years with a cheating asshole. He was banging a nurse on his desk.

"It's not what it looks like."

"Right, and that's not a slutty nurse sucking on your tiny dick." I rolled my eyes. I wasn't even hurt. I was just mad that I wasted two years with a cheating asshole.

"This means nothing."

"Goodbye." I slammed the door and left.

"This is the address to Jason's place. Take me there right now." I was fuming. He didn't say anything, he just drove me to his house. As soon as we arrived, I knocked on his door. He opened it and I went inside. I told Lance to wait outside.

"Did you told Tom that I was easy?"

"Was that a secret? I mean we slept together on the second date. And those two months together, was pure sex, no feelings. You were my sex toy. Be honest Sophia. You don't strike me as the person to be in a relationship And be all lovey dovey. You're a worthless piece of shit." His words hurt. Was I really worthless?

Someone barged in and went after Jason. Punches were thrown. And all I saw was Jason on the floor.

"My job is to protect you. And that's what I did. This one is a bastard who doesn't know how to respect women."

"Thank you, Lance. Let's go." Jason just glared at me. We got inside the car and he drove us to who knows where. He parked the car and looked at me.

"Was he right? Am I worthless? Am I just good for sex and that's all? Am I really incapable of loving someone? Maybe he's right. I never loved Jerry. Jason was just for fun. I guess I really am all of those things." Tears started to fall. I just broke down. I couldn't stop the tears from falling. I haven't cried in a while.

"He's not right. You're not worthless. And no you're not a sex toy either. The right guy just hasn't come. But when that happens, everything will make sense as to why it never worked out with anyone. Then one day a stranger comes and flips your world upside down."

"Thank you Lance for your words. I feel a little better." I smiled. "Now, please drive me to this address." He looked at it and drove us there. We got off the car and went inside their house.

"Hey everyone." I announced as I waved Bri, Jojo, Ricky and Liam. They were having a barbecue today.

"This is, Lance Jacobs. My bodyguard/roommate and soon to be husband." I said as they laughed. They introduced themselves. The guys invited Lance for a beer outside. He just looked at me and I told him it was okay.

"Bravo on the hot bodyguard." Jojo mentioned.

"Dad hired him. So bravo dad for giving me a hot bodyguard." They just chuckled.

"Well, mine isn't hot. Especially since Ricky would lose it." Bri told us.

"Bodyguards are not for me. They suffocate me. Good luck you two." Jojo replied while sitting on the couch.

They asked me why my eyes were puffy. I told them everything that happened today. They were angry. They wanted to kill Jerry and Jason.

"Do I know how to pick them or what?"

"Well, maybe with hottie you can start something. I mean you both are good looking people, you live together. I say you kiss and bang and then have babies." Bri said while opening her bottle of water.

"No babies. Though I can't stop imagining him on me. How can someone so sexy exist in this world."

"How long has it been for you since you last had sex with tool king?" Jojo asked.

"Two months only. I wasn't feeling the sex with him anymore. So I would make up every excuse. I want something real, something passionate. I want a passionate love. I wasn't getting that from Jerry. I'll just enjoy the single life. Woohoo."

"I have feeling. Things will change." Bri said to us.

We went outside and the guys were having a blast. Lance was enjoying talking to them. That was a plus. The man needs to let loose a bit. not everything is work, sometimes we need a little break.

After lunch with everyone, we went home. As soon as we arrived, Jerry was on the front porch waiting. You've gotta be kidding me.

"Can we talk?"

"No, I saw you and that nurse going at it in your office. There's nothing left to say."

"This is your fault. It's been two months since we last had sex. A guy has needs. And you know what. The nurse is better at it than you. You suck in bed." He shot back. I slapped him really hard.

"Don't disrespect me. And I didn't want to have your little thing inside me. FYI, size matter a lot. If anyone sucked in bed, it was you. Now get the hell away from here and don't come back I'm gonna get a restraining order against you." I was beyond angry. He just glared at me and left.

Just one day of peace, is that too much to ask? I need a nap. We went inside and I went straight to my bedroom. A few minutes later I knocked on his door. And he opened it. He was just wearing sweatpants.

"Sorry, I was gonna take a shower. Do you need me for something?"

"I just came to tell you that you can have the rest of the day off, you can visit your mom or whatever you want to do. You can take my car if you want." With that said I went to my room.

He sent me a text and told me he was gonna visit his mom. But he would be back in two hours. I told him that it was okay. I just need a nap. This day has been too much for me.

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