Entry No. 7 - The Feeling

A/N Hello dear readers! Here's another update. I hope you enjoy reading. This one is a too short but I'll try my best to make the next chapter longer.. Love Love!

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It was way past midnight when we decided to go home. We bid our goodbye to Joeana's family. We talked and laughed all day, remembering the memories we shared with Joeana. We filled our minds with happy thoughts and unforgettable memories we have with Joeana. As what Auntie Jewel said, even though Joeana was in that kind of situation, we have to bear in our mind that she's fighting her way to survive. She wanted to leave, so we should support her. She wouldn't give up, so we should help her. We should pray for her.

This is one of the reasons why I always love to be with Joeana's family. Even though they lack in terms of financial status but the bond between the members of their family was so strong especially their faith in Him. I remembered back when Momsie and Popsie went to Europe after they agreed that I should finish my study her and when I was alone together with the maids, Joeana would visit me, she would keep on persuading me to come with her. And everytime I agree, she will bring me into their house and she would include me to their family bonding, sometimes she would invite me to attend daily mass on their church, together with her family.

I smiled when I suddenly remember the time when I told Joeana's family about the incident with Gwen and how we meet Xandra. They were so glad that we finally found someone that would add to our friendship. It's true that when it comes to friendship, the more you have, the merrier you get.

On the other hand, Xandra was able to caught Joeana's older brother, Judas' attention. Instead of focusing on playing Mobile Legends on his iPhone, he sat next to Xandra - who kept on blushing - and talked to her, introducing himself and asking her things about herself.

It was around 2 am in the morning when I got home. Judas brought Xandra home. Luckily, Judas had his own car and Xandra felt flattered.

I parked my car on the driveway and decided to just leave it there. I walked towards the maindoor. As I was about to hold the doorknob, someone opened it for me. I looked at the person who opened the door. It was Mr. Henry. I smiled when I saw him.

"Good evening, Madam. I was waiting for you when you said you will come home." Mr. Henry said as he was closing the door.

I sighed. "I'm sorry, Mr. Henry. I wasn't able to tell you what time will I be home."

"It's okay, Madam. You should rest now. You look tired. Just tell me what happened when you visit Joeana over breakfast." He told me as he was accompanying me towards the stairs.

"You should get some rest too. I'm sorry to keep you waiting. Have a good night." I smiled at him as I turned around and climbed the stairs.

When I reached the door of my bedroom I opened it and entered. I locked the door and searched for the light switch.

"So much for a sleepover."

"What the hell!" I jumped and shouted in sheer surprise. I turned around to see X comfortably lying down on my bed. His arms were behind his head, while he's leaning against the headrest of my bed.

"Oh! I'm so sorry! I forgot that you'll be sleeping here." I said guiltily. I really forgot about the sleepover because my mind was occupied with so many things.

"How's your day?" X said as he straightened up from the bed and sat on the edge.

"I have a great day. I convinced Joeana's parents that we should consult for second opinion about her condition. Mom said she would help them." I told him as I walked towards the bathroom. "Wait here, I'll have a quick shower. I think I have brought viruses from the hospital." Then I entered the bathroom.

"I can join you if you want." He had that playful smirk on his face when he said that. I just rolled my eyes heavenward as I closed the door and locked it.

I took a quick shower. I felt like I have so many germs all over my body that I felt very itchy. I made sure to wash my body with soap. After I finished taking a bath I was about to put on my silk robe when I realized I forgot it outside.

"Damn! For f*ck' sake. Why do I keep on forgetting everything this past few days." I cursed to myself. I slid the glass door of my shower room open and went out, then I opened the bathroom door a little bit. I peeked my head outside. My wet naked body was behind the bathroom door. "Hey X. Would you be so kind to lend me my silkrobe? I put it on the chair near my vanity mirror." I faked a sweet and kind tone.

"I saw him raising one brow but he stood up to get what I requested. He then walked towards me but he stopped walking when he was few feet in front of me. He grinned playfully. "Let me guess. You're not wearing anything behind that door." I blushed when he said that.

'Jerk! Don't stress the obvious.' I was supposed to tell him that but I stop myself because he might not give me my silkrobe. So, instead of saying that, I smiled softly then said, "Will you hand me my silkrobe, please? I might catch a cold if I were to stay wet and naked." At that, he grinned even more but thankfully, he handed me my silkrobe. I snatched it and closed the door with a loud thud. I so want to snap at him for being a naughty jerk but I refrained myself from doing so.

I quickly put on my silkrobe and I made sure that this time I tied it tightly to prevent further malicious remarks coming from him. After I finished tying my robe I inhaled deeply, and went out. I quickly walked towards my walk-in closet but not before I heard cat calls from the jerk who's sitting on my bed. I just sighed as I searched for clothes to wear.

I thought of wearing sexy lingerie, or a short shorts and a sando, maybe a bra and ------- wait?! What the hell was I thinking? I shook my head alot of times. What was I thinking? Why would I wear skimpy nightdress when I usually wear oversized t-shirts and pajama? I must be out of my mind. I was planning on wearing sexy and daring clothes because of the intention of seducing X. Even though that was a big hit on my ego but I can't deny the fact that I liked him and I was planning on seducing him.

I scratched the back of my head as I pulled some oversized pink t-shirt and a blue pajama out of my dresser. I put it on immediately after I put lotion on my body and went out of the walk-in closet. I walked towards the other side of the bed and sat there. X was on the other side. I layed down on my side and he did the same.

He came closer to me and snuggled me. I stiffened as I felt the awkwardness. I mean, yes we kissed and make out but hey! We're strangers after all. He's a stranger. And my Momsie always told me to be careful around strangers. But then again, I felt so safe, so secure on his arms wrapping over my shoulder. I felt as if nothing could go wrong, so I've decided to seize the moment. I turned on the other side, we came face to face. Few inches of space were between our lips.

"You know what? You're one lucky guy." I told him as I looked at him in the eyes.

"Why is that?" He asked me as he held my gaze.

"You're lucky because you have the opportunity to sleep by my side." I half-whispered as I saw him slowly crossed the gap between us.

"You are the lucky one." He said on his husky bedroom voice. I instantly felt those butterflies in my stomach. I can't believe I was actually feeling this way. This delicious sensation, towards a stranger.

"And why is that?" Though, I was affected by his presence, I kept my expression neutral. I even arched my eyebrows.

"Because you are able to sleep beside me." He grinned when he said that. I just rolled my eyes. Obviously, he just mimicked what I've said.

"You know what? You're the most egocentric man I have ever known." I told him.

"Is that a good point or a bad point for me?" He asked me, his lips were inches away from mine.

I raised him an eyebrow as if I was disappointed but the truth was I wasn't able to answer his question because I don't even know what to say.

"You know what? You have a natural beauty. Even though you looked pissed or angry or even grimacing, you still looked beautiful." He told me. I was feeling flattered that I can't suppress the smile that formed on my lips. He smiled at me too. For a split second, we just lie there, staring at each other, memorizing each others faces.

"I've been wanting to ask you this question but everytime I tried to, you wouldn't allow me." I was the first to broke the silence between us.

"Ask me about what?" He asked me, his gaze still fixed on me.

"Well... Uhm. I-I just want t-to ask. W-Why do you want to k-kill Gwen?" I asked him while stammering.

He just smiled at me and leaned forward to kiss the tip of my nose. I wrinkled my nose because he didn't answer my question. "Oh! Come on! Answer me!" I insisted when he didn't speak.

"Do you really want to know the reason?" He asked me. I nodded. He just sighed and guided my head on his arms, I snuggled closer to him while he's staring at the ceiling.

"Before you know me, before you saw me on Gwen's house, I have already killed numerous number of people. I have once slaughtered an entire group of gangsters who robbed, raped and killed a couple of newly weds. I killed people who were cunning. People who wanted to outweigh others. I loved to hear them scream. I loved to hear them begging me to spare their lives. Those people that even though they were still alive, their souls were being burned on the hottest fires of the inferno." He said then looked at me.

I looked back at him. Shivers run down my spine at the thought of him torturing his victims first before killing them. The thought of him giving agonizing pain to those people made me shrieked.

"Tell me, are you still not afraid of me, Venus?" This was the first time he said my name. And this was also the first time I like my name being said especially when he was the one saying it.

"A part of me tells me that I should be afraid of you because you can kill me in a blink of an eye. Yet another part tells me that you will never hurt me. That you will not do things that may hurt me. And I believe that part of me. I believe that you will never hurt me. Though we just met on an unexpectable situation, I know that when my instinct tells me that I should trust you, you're a good person because my instinct never fails me." I decided to tell him the truth about what I felt. There's no point in denying and hiding the fact after all.

A warm smile formed on his lips as he listened to what I was saying. "Well, that's really nice to hear. I am very pleased to hear that from you." He then turned towards me. We were now facing each other.

I can gradually felt my heart beating faster. Thump, Thump, Thump my heart goes. I thought feeling those butterflies in my stomach can only be experienced by girls on clichè love story movies yet I can actually feel it while we were lying side by side. I felt like I am Bella Swan when I first had the chance to meet Edward Cullen. It feels like fireworks exploding around us. At that moment, it felt magical. Clichè as it may seem, but that's what I felt right at this very moment.

He raised his fingers and tentatively touched my lower lip. I can feel electricity flowing on my veins at the mere touch of his fingers on my lip. I closed my eyes as I savor that delicious moment.

"Do you felt that spark, milady?" I opened my eyes when I heard him speak. I can't speak my mind so I nodded my head as a response.

"There's something off between us. I know you felt it too." He said huskily.

"I do feel it." I said in half-whisper. "But you should atleast consider that I was new to this kind of feeling. You must know that this is my first time being intimately close to someone." I added.

"I know. And I can also teach you how to be intimate with me." There's the naughty gleam on his eyes again. My eyes opened wide when I gradually understood what he was pointing out.

"Y-You want us to..." I stammered between words. He grinned at me. "I-I mean you w-want something to-to happen between... u-us?" I asked him.

He didn't say anything instead he grinned even more. I swallowed an imaginary lump on my throat. There's so many thought that kept on popping out of my mind but one question cleared its way in.

Am I ready?

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