Right Time (On Going)

How do you know if it’s the right time already?

Was it when the clock stops ticking?

Does it feel like butterflies in your stomach every time you see your favorite person?

But seriously, I don’t have freaking ideas. There are many thoughts about it. And I think that my mind wants to quit thinking about them. I don’t know what I am supposed to do. I can’t explain what or whom shall I believe. But there’s just one thing that my friend told me many times. When you like someone, you should never quit. So I decided to create my list of how to get him.

Yesterday, my friend Stella and I went out to have some fresh breath air. It’s a Saturday already. You will not believe me when I say that this day is the great day of the week. You got to spend a lot of time doing entirely nothing. You’re like a bird free to go anywhere you want. What also makes me excited is the fact that I got to see Kyle Austin every day riding his favorite mountain bicycle.

“Hey!” He greeted us on his way to our usual spot.

“Was it real? Did he really greet us?” I turned my face to her and slapped my cheeks to make sure that what just happened was real.

“Am I dreaming?” I asked her again but I got nothing.

“You just heard it and then you’re smiling already.” She complains. "I can’t believe you.” She uttered it again as if I never heard it. You know what. This girl beside me is so crazy. The moment I asked her, I never received any responses. But when I never ask her to talk. She whispers too much just like what she is doing earlier.

“So tell me, How will I ever make him fall for me?” I excitedly ask her while I put down my bag beside the wooden chair right behind me.

“I don’t know how to be honest. but if you want I can give you free tickets to their concert.” She offered me those tickets. The moment I handle these tickets. I smell it and it smells good. But you know what thrills me more? is the fact that I never got to spend my savings on their concert. This will be my chance to meet him. I swear this will be the best day of my life. The only thing that’s running in my mind right now is the band Sunset Patrol. Their music makes me feel alive. Hearing them on live stage performing is already a great achievement.

“Hey, Selina watch out!” I heard a scream. a very loud one coming from her. Reality came back suddenly when I felt something had hit my head.

“I’m sorry” He apologizes as he offers his hands on mine. “You alright? Does it still hurt?” He continues to ask. I felt a pain in my head, specifically my forehead. It doesn’t ache that much. My vision was kinda blurry at that time.

What I was sure about was that a ball hit my head that hard. “I’m fine, thanks,” I say towards the guy who helps me out. I went back into our topic a while ago. I just ignore what happened. That’s the best part of me that most of my friends don’t like simply because I’m a great pretender. I act as if I wasn’t hurt but the truth it is, I’m just keeping it to myself always.

“Do you know who helped me?” I ask her again. She just shook her head and when I looked at the corner. He was busy reading my favorite book. The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks. It makes me think that He is not just a great performer but also a very smart person.

I turn my gaze into the dark gray skies telling me to prepare for heavy rain to pours on a little while. I heard a guitar-strumming softly. They will always say that curiosity kills a cat right? But that doesn’t seem true. So I left Stella there on our bench while I was busy scanning the place. This is the first time I actually heard my favorite song. The songs that describe my feelings. By listening to this song. I felt relieved.

Oh my love

Did they tell you

Just how long a time

It took for me to get to you

And when the world

Said it's impossible

Said it's improbable

The chances of me finding you

I decided to look back again at this charming guy named Kyle Austin. But he isn’t there anymore. I have this feeling that He might be the one playing the guitar. I never expected that He can sing. His voice is so good. I wonder if it’s one of his all-time hobbies. or maybe a favorite pastime. Not a bad thing!

As I sneaked out of the place I saw him again. But this time he was playing the guitar already. I saw his freaking blue eyes looking at the sky. He lay his body on the grass while he said his heart out.

But nobody knows

How we go

When we're alone

It's like we're home

This song is performed by my girl crush named Reese Lansangan. A Filipina singer-songwriter but when I heard this song performed by him it made my heart stop. It gives shivers down through my soul. And it makes me think that I wanna join him to play that song.

My bones are safe

And my heart can rest

Knowing it belongs to you

My world is changed

And it's cradled by

The comfort that is you

Yes, you’re right Kyle. You really got my attention right now. And I have to admit that my heart only belongs to you now. Haha kidding aside, My friend appears at my back pinching my ears trying to catch my attention.

“Ouch! that hurts!” I accidentally shouted. I noticed he stopped playing the guitar. I grab her hands so we can hide at the tall green grass. Just enough to cover our face from him.

“You said that you will only go buy food and then this is what I will find out! huh?” I cover her mouth so she can’t talk that much.

“You see.” I tried to explain but I was just whispering. “I was supposed to but I wasn’t hungry anymore and so I went here” I explained again and when we looked back at his direction. No one is there already.

“Hey ladies! What are you doing there?” Kyle Austin was asking me. Or isn’t it just me? Oh my Gosh! This will be the most embarrassing moment of my life. I swear I don’t want this to happen again ever!