A day before the party handling by our seniors. I was in my room spending my time cleaning my room. It was the afternoon when I got finished. I stand near on glass window seeing the view of the city. Thinking again about love, I didn't know but I feel strange on the day when Yuan's brother bumped in me at the coffee shop.

I don't know, what I'm feeling right now, all I know is I hate that person because of attitude he had but honestly I'm admiring him too because of his looks.

I lay down on my bed thinking of things that would happen later if I attend the gathering until I fell asleep.

Its already 4 pm when I awake but I'm still wondering why I dreamt about Yuan's brother, we're both on the swimming pool when he fell down and he pulled me a minute ago he touch my cheeks and stared at me like there's no tomorrow.

I'm still curious about what happened until I realized I need to prepare everything I need for the laters event.

I got my bag then I'm too curious why I have a shirt on my bag til I remember the day when coffee poured to me. I washed and dry it until the time run goes fast.

Its almost 6 pm when I leave my room, I'm in the street waiting for a transport vehicle suddenly there is a car who stopped on my place and the driver open his car and I saw Yuan, he asked me if what I'm doing there until he wanted me to have a ride with him.

He looks on him like the clock ticking so fast and telling me to say yes I do not know but his eyes are literally capturing my innocent heart I do not know but it was clear that this guy is not just an angel it was a cursed angel who cursed to capture anyone on his looks if Medusa in mythology he was cursed by her beauty and rape by one of the gods and the other god cursed her that her beauty turns into the biggest fear of everyone when someone looks into her eyes will turn to a statue.

I said yes to him not because I wanted but the time is ticking and I hate being late on any occasion or event. I believed that being early or in time is the best way to be a productive person in the near future.

He opens the window and to be honest, I like the way he treats me like I'm being so important to him and I'm enjoying the view inside the car the beauty of the city will see when the sun go down the citylight and the feeling is unusual it is the best feeling I've ever felt I looked on him and smile that he didn't notice but inside me, I'm so thankful to have this kind of friend he was so kind.

I'm usually thinking about love I'm starting to think if Yuan had a girlfriend will be the luckiest person in the world having a good-looking and good attitude of his boyfriend.

Love is not about liking someone it's about how you feel with him/her it is not about the word like or admires it's all about your emotion and how strong it is.

I do not know but I'm a little bit curious with his brother, I asked him and he told that his brother is a secret keeper everyone's on their family didn't know what he feels and he didn't even open with them and he also said his brother since the day he was born until now he doesn't have any relationship I was surprised on what he said that's why I asked him again why, he smiled at me like he notice something on my question and he started teasing me that I like his brother, well I replied to him that his brother is a good-looking person and also like a fictional character who can give the best relationship in this world, he laughed on me asked me if I'm gay and I give him an unhappy smile and talked with him seriously I admitted to him that I'm not straight nor gay and I do not know who I am and what I am.

He looked at me like he saw something on my eyes and he wanted to hug me and say its okay, you are free to choose what you want in life, he was trying to connect to me on his eyes I literally say to him that his eyes having a cursed but he smiles and told me that it was my reason to admired me and I gave him a smile.

We reached the place and luckily we're not late, the time we stopped at the place I go down first while he was preparing to go down too. Eventually, the time I was standing back to him he pulled me on his chest and his hands rubbed my back and he said " Dylan no matter what happens I still remain a friend of you! Always remember that! " he holds my arms tightly until his right arm getting up to my face, I was thinking he would touch my cheeks I feel so shy on him until he notices that I'm blushing so he put his arms on my shoulder and take me at the table were going to sit.

Actually, it was the first time that I feel so shy in a guy we're now both sitting and talking with juniors like us but my mind was in there it really sucks me into death.

I do not know if it's just admiring or it was an emotion that my mother told me. I don't want to fell in love with any person in my life and who's going to be part of my life.

I was there drinking when his brother arrived and looked at me like I did something to him.