WHEREVER Zach goes, I go, I feel that he really doesn't want to be with me but it's okay as long as I am with him.

I also bring him foods; I dislikes cooking but I studied it for him. Later, I found out that he only fed it to his friends. It's fine! I know sooner or later, he'd fall for my cookings.

I also learned to play the guitar and one time I went to his class — to everyone's surprised, i played the guitar for him--i serenaded him! He remained speechless and his classmates began to tease us.

I also walked with him everyday and I found out that their house was not that far from our house, so, sometimes I visit him but he did not let me inside.

The next day I arrived at school earlier. I put up a big tarpouline in their department building with a picture of him and a message: "Zachary Samaniego, will you be mine?"

I asked the school guards for help. Actually, it is forbidden in school but I begged them, for the sake of my love.

When Zach arrived in his building, he immediately saw the tarpouline I had attached. I could not read the reaction on his face as he did not show emotion. Doesn't he like what I did? He also left immediately. I was a little sad but it was okay, on to the next one.

The next day I surprised him again. I uploaded a video to my youtube channel singing and playing the guitar, I used his tarpouline which I took home and put it in my room as a background.

It's good thing that Mommy and Daddy are staying in the US and I'm with my mom's younger sister, because they might think I went crazy. Maybe when they found out about it this, they will stop me, which they often do when I watch my K-dramas. All my life, I never have been like this and sometimes I think this is not me anymore!

I sang one of his favorite songs that I researched and studied on guitar, the 'Crazy for you' version of Juris, a Filipino singer and left him a simple dedication. The guitar chords were difficult but I seriously studied hard though I almost gave up.

The next day at school, Zach's male classmates teased him because of the video I uploaded on youtube that seemed to have spreaded all over the school campus. My heart pounded and smiled when I saw him approaching me.

I felt shiverred down my spine. Was he grateful for my efforts? OMG! Is he gonna answer me now? But I lost all my doubts when he suddenly said ...

"Delete that video on your youtube channel!" he said then hurriedly left in front of me.

I was a little bit hurt because I made a super effort just to do that video. I heaved a sighed. But of course I will not give up. I believe, in the end he would fall for me too. I need to exert more efforts.

My friends said if I was just a man and courted them, they would have answered me long time ago, their words have encouraged me even more and I thanked them for a great support system.

I know Zach is already annoyed with me but I'll still go on. The next dayz I went to their classroom and brought a sorry letter. Their Professor was not there yet so I handed the letter to him but I was surprised when he tore the letter it in front of me.

I wanted to cry that very moments not because I was embarassed but because his annoyed stares were causing pain in my heart. Do I really have no chance to win his heart? It's hurts and I don't know what to do anymore! But I still did not give up.

One time I went to their swimming class. They didn't have a professor then so I went inside the swimming area.

"Can I talk to you?" I asked Zach but he ignored me.

"Give up girl!" I heard someone say but i ignored it.

A cold ice melts when heated and also a hard rock even the hardest crumbles, so, i believe I can change him. I blocked his path but he passed over me.

"If you don't talk to me, I'll jump in the pool and let me just inform you, I don't know how to swim." I threatened him but the truth is that I know how to swim, I just want to scare him to talk to me.

But he just kept walking. I could do nothing but jump into the six-feet swimming pool. The people who witnessed what I did were shocked. I was under the water for a few seconds but Zach was still not rescuing me.

I was given hope when a hand pulled me up into the water. I pretended to be unconscious for mouth to mouth resuscitation. yeah, silly me. I could hear the alarmed people around me but I was frustrated when he just pumped my chest so I quickly opened my eyes.

l was even more disappointed when I saw the person in front of me was not Zach Samaniego — it was their swimming teacher. I saw Zach then behind the teacher and just staring at me.

He did not even move to approach me or ask how was I. Fortunately, my face was still wet with water, so the tears was not noticeable. Is it really that hard to love someone you don't love? Are these the consequences when loving someone? It hurts but is it okay? But haven't I prepared myself for it? Why I still hurt so much?

My sadness faded away when I saw Zach approached me. I was surprised a moment later when he lifted me up like of a newlywed couple. His clothes got wet because of me.

"W-Why?" I asked him.

"I'll take you to the clinic." He said.

I smiled. The plan of giving up on him has completely disappeared. I love him each of everyday.

I'm used to loving him, so I will definitely have a hard time if I give up on him. As he lifted me up I smiled and leaned on his sturdy chest.

I pray that in his every heartbeat it will be me. I hope he loves me too, so that I don't have to suffer like this anymore. But as they say, a success is sweeter if it comes from great efforts. And I hope I can taste that sweet victory right away because it's almost a month since I started courting him.