Still into you

12:51

It is already late at night but I still couldn't sleep. I cannot stop myself from thinking about him. Two years have passed yet he is still the guy I am in love with.

"I love you more than the stars at the night."

My tears started falling as I read his message, I don't know if what he used to tell me before is true. I am starting to doubt his feelings for me and all of the times we shared, I am doubting if all of that was true.

12:52

I promised myself before that if I ever see him again. I am just going to act like nothing had happened between the both of us... but I just can't...

"I will fight for you 'till the end."

I heaved a deep sigh. Fight for who? Fight for me? where is he now? Why am I fighting all of this hatred and depression all by myself right now? Am I too foolish to believe that he will actually do that?

12:53

Time check. It is almost 1 pm, yet I couldn't sleep. I am still thinking and all of those thoughts wouldn't go away so easily. Damn! Why am I staying up late for that jerk who doesn't even care for me.

"Have you eaten yet?"

Those were the time I thought he cared, I thought that he was actually concerned but actually he is not. That was definitely a lie and he is just trying to confuse me with those lies.

12:54

I was still scrolling through our past conversation and still reading through all his messages, do you think I am stupid? Actually I think that I am already.

"I am kind of busy right now actually, talk to you later."

I laughed upon reading that sentence. I realized how fool I have been and he is probably looking for another girl that time and that explains why he is always busy.

12:55

"I think we need a break."

That. That was the tipping point of everything and that was when everything changes between the both of us already but I guess I was not that smart to realize and still continues to beg and ask what is the reason why.

"I just need space."

That is how a smart girl who ace all of her academics become a sudden idiot because of love. I just realized how stupid and idiot I was that time. I didn't even think about myself and I just kept on thinking about us.

12:57

I kept on crying and tears of regret filled my cheeks. It was all because of my stupid decision that leads me in this situation. Just like every fairy tale our story ended... but not in a happily ever after but with a quote of "let's break up"

12:58

Two years without him have been easy for me... but I don't know what hit me tonight that I cried a bunch of tears because of him. I just... don't know.

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Stephen: Still awake?

I ate up all my words, I am still unto him.