My Hellbound heart

LUST: be consumed with desire for something.

The word has many definitions, but of course, most believe it is the lust of sexual desire. Lust for power, Lust for strength, eta. But it is true that the Lust for Flesh is the strongest of them all. Who can say that they don't want to be held tight when they are in the arms of their lover. to feel the warm strong hands never let go, fearing that their warmth will fade.

Yet it was a Sin.

Lust was known to be one of the 7 deadly sins. One that could send you to hell. something that God would punish you for.

Ah God, The Creator of the Universe, the Father, the Almighty, all those names for some bearded man in the sky. Someone who didn't exist.

Maggie Vargus or "Mags" as her friends called her, was now 18 years old knew the way of the world. All of it was a lie. but the biggest lie out there was religion. Believing that there was a place in the sky that you would go to when your die was total BS. Maggie knew that when someone dies that's it, nothing after that. You die, you get put in the dirt or become tiny ashes and that's it, Bugs feed off your rotting corpse or your ashes breeze in the windy sky. End of story.

However, most of her community didn't share her ideas, even some of her friends didn't think she was right, some didn't believe in God but believed in reincarnation instead. Maggie found all of it stupid. Dead was Dead. That's it.

Maggie was currently smoking at a local playground that was empty and she sat on the swing. She had changed a lot, but her Physical appearance was a big change from what she wore as a young teen, She wore a Grey and Black Flannel Hoodie, underneath that was a short crop-top that had a blue sad face, she wore shorts that only went down to her upper thighs, she had full black sneakers and her hair was in a ponytail. She saw that is was getting dark, the sun slowly falling behind the mountains, and the street lights were beginning to light the dark sidewalks and streets.

She didn't want to go home yet, she moved out of her parent's home and lived in a cozy one-bedroom apartment, but she knew that she would get an earful of a phone call from her mother again. Why you might ask? today was Sunday, You know the day the Lord rested. Maggie never went to church with her mother, always sneaking off before her mom would force her to go. So here she was, sitting on a swing and smoking a cigarette in a child's playground.

"Mind if I sit here?" Came a voice

Maggie turned around and looked to see a boy with snow-white Dyed hair.

He was the same height as her, he wore black and red Addidas with black jeans with a bit of hole's in the legs, his shirt was black and she could make out the sleeves of his shirt and they had roses. over that was a black and red Lettermen Jacket, he also had a necklace, she only saw the chain but she saw that something must have been attached as the chain was more V-shaped than a regular chain necklace.

"Go ahead" She replied

The boy took sat on a swing next to her and just sat there looking at the playground. The two didn't say a word to each other. Why would they? they didn't know each other. But for some reason, the white hair reminded Maggie of someone.

"So, what are you doing out here for?" The boy asked

She turned to him, "what's it to you? It's none of your business" Maggie replied

The boy smirked, that threw Maggie off, "Sorry, I was just trying to make conversation, I do that when I'm a bit upset, but I think I've seen you somewhere before" The boy told her

Maggie nodded her head, "Yeah I get that feeling to"

"Did we go to the same school together?" the boy asked

"I don't think so, I would remember a kid with dyed white hair" Maggie replied "you perform or something?" Maggie asked

"Nope"

"Wait... your the new kid that arrived here" Maggie replied

The boy looked at her and smiled, "Yep"

Maggie just smirked, "Lemmy right?"

Lemmy nodded, "yep, and you are?"

"Maggie Vargus" She replied "But my friends call me Mags"

Maggie then took a long hit of her cigarette and puffed out some smoke slowly. Lemmy watched her release the smoke in the semi-dark air. The smoke itself flowed out so slow that it looked like it would just form itself into a small cloud and rise to the sky. It some weird way, it was amazing and beautiful.

Maggie saw the stare that Lemmy was giving her, so she pulled out her pack of Cigarettes and took one out and handed one to him. "Want one?" She asked

Lemmy never smoked in his life. He knew of its ill effects, but with the day he just had, he would do anything to relieve the stress. So he took it and Maggie pulled out her lighter. The Lighter itself was unique, It was black and had the same Blue sad face in the middle of it, however, what made it more unique was that when she lit it the fire burned green, he didn't know how that was possible but he didn't care, he leaned in with the Cigarette in his mouth and it lit the end of the Cigarette. Lemmy took a huge puff of it and began to cough harshly

Maggie smiled, knowing how it felt to take a hit of your first Cigarette. the awful taste, the burning sensation that went down your throat, but if he took more hits of the Cigarette, he would learn to deal with it. She saw him take another hit and saw that this time he took it with ease but the distaste for it was still on his face, but she noticed that his shoulders began to relax.

"So if I may ask again, what are you doing out here?" Lemmy asked

Maggie looked at him, "Bored, Sunday is never a good day for me, Never know what to do and I don't have many friends" Maggie told him "what about you?"

"Argument with my parents" Lemmy replied "Didn't want to go to church"

"Not up for it today?" Maggie asked

"I never was after I turned 9," Lemmy said "Never believed in it"

Maggie looked at him with a surprising look, "Really? you an Atheist too?" Maggie asked

Lemmy nodded, "you too? never thought I find someone in this shit town who shared my opinions" Lemmy told her

Maggie nodded, "Same here" she replied, "so you just didn't want to go to church and your parents got mad at you?"

Lemmy nodded, "Yeah, they're not fanatics or anything but they still have a strong belief, but for me, never felt that way"

"Why?"

"Well, as I grew up I always thought that it was kinda weird, as a teen I began to question more about the bible and god, I mean if God created us then why did he give us these... these urges," Lincoln told her with a blush

"what urges?" Maggie asked

Lincoln looked at her, "promise you won't tell?" Lincoln asked

"Since your the first person who actually is the same as me, I'll keep whatever we talk about a secret," Maggie told him

Lincoln nodded, He took a long hit from his cigarette and then let the smoke flow from his lips, "I've had sexual urges since I turned 14, My Girl- My Ex and me kissed and stuff, even sometimes touching, but... whenever we were close to doing... you know, She didn't want to do it. I'm not saying that I wanna rush into things, nor am I gonna force her to have sex with me, but damn hormones are too strong I guess" Lemmy told her

Maggie chuckled a little, "I get that, I understand where your coming from, but for me, I always have wanted to be with someone who would be ready when I'm ready, some guys wanted to rush into things some didn't, sometimes I was sure I was ready but they weren't, I never ever had sex" Maggie said "and I'm 18 for fucks sake"

They both chuckled and looked to each other, to them it felt good to tell someone this, someone, who understood. Guess misery did enjoy the company

"it's only 5:00 I don't have to be home till curfew, you wanna grab something to eat?" Lemmy asked

Maggie nodded, "Sure"

They got off the swings and they both took a hit of their Cigarettes as they walked along the sidewalk and to any fast food place they could find.