Realisation

The next following days, it went on smoothly and I still haven't told Gale that was in the club that night. I lied and made up some lame excuses like I felt ill that night and I was unable to call him because I was asleep.

Lame excuses but it works.

And I also didn't mention about the hot guy that I made out with because that will surely piss him off. And Lau suggested that it would be better if I don't tell him if I plan to not do it again. It will just ruin our relationship. Well, I wanted to break up with him but, I still doesn't want to hurt him.

He's the only one that loves me more than anything. And now I really do feel bad that I kissed a stranger in the club.

I should have not kissed that man.

Now I have to take that secret to my grave.

Right now, Gale is in Canada, doing something about the case that he is handling. And I missed him already. I know I made a mistake for kissing that man in the club and I will make sure that it will never happen again.

God, I just cheated on my fiancé? But it's just a kiss, right? Shit. I really did cheated on him.

"Don't tell you are still thinking about the guy you just kissed?" Lau woke me back to reality as she pinched my back.

I'm just driving my best friend to her place. And it has always been like this, before me, I drive her home first.

"Why would I think about him?" I scoffed, it is a lie of course because I am still thinking about that handsome guy.

"Maybe because you like him?" Lau smirked, teasingly.

"I'm engaged, Lau. Don't tease me." I slapped her hand away from punching me because I'm driving.

"So what if you're engage? You're not married yet." She rolled her eyes then crossed her arms.

"Lau, can you please hand me my phone? It's in my bag." I asked her because it is located at the backseat. I can't reach out behind because I'm currently in busy road.

Lau obliged and gave me my phone. "Thanks." I murmured then tried to call Gale. But it made me reach up to 6 missed calls and he is still not answering.

"Who are you calling?"

"Gale." I answered. "He's not answering me."

"Maybe he's busy." Lau shrugged her shoulders then chuckled. "Or maybe he doesn't want to talk to someone. Shana, just leave him be."

I didn't listen to her and just keep on calling him. Seriously, Lau never approves about Gale. She doesn't like him and it is very obvious. She barely talks to him when we're all together. And she gets mad at me when I accepted his proposal.

And I really want her to like him. Who doesn't want that?

12 more missed calls and he is still not answering. I already dropped Lau home and I am already in Dad's house when he is still not answering.

"That's an awful face. What are you thinking?" My mind snaps back to reality when my older sister, Lana speaks as she nudges my shoulder. I was actually making a soup and I didn't noticed that I absent-mindedly staring at it while I wait for it to simmer. And the soup just dries off because of my carelessness. "Shit." I removed it immediately from the heat and transferred it somewhere.

"Now you destroyed our soup for dinner." Now, my older brother, Franco came up also to check us up as he leans to see the pot.

The reason why we are all here gathered up, it is because it's my Dad's birthday. We are here in his house and its been a like a tradition that we all have to gather here and make some dinner for him every year at his birthday.

I took off my kitchen gloves and throw it at Franco's face then washed my hands and removed my apron. "Just throw it out if you don't want to eat it."

"Woah. Someone is in a bad mood." I heard Franco muttered, taking the soup pot and pour something in his bowl. "It may be dry but it tastes good."

I rolled my eyes and made my way to the living room. Dad and his girlfriend is still not here so we are just waiting for them to return before we start dinner. God, won't they hurry up? I badly wanted to go home.

Lana prepared the kitchen while Franco and our oldest brother, Leo is in the living room. It didn't take that long until Dad finally arrives.

He enters the house and he grins quickly upon seeing us. "Happy Birthday!" We all greeted in chorus.

Dad seems to be very happy to see us then his girlfriend...I think her name was Sam and she was surprised to see us all together.

Dad hugged us one by one and he hugs me the longest. "Shanaya, my princess. It been so long since you last visited me." He even kissed the top of my head. "What have you been doing all these time?"

I rubbed my head and chuckled weakly. "Sorry, Dad. I've been very busy with work lately."

"It's alright, dear. I'm glad that you can join us tonight." He pats my head then we all immediately head towards the dining area where the food are already served.

"Where have you been Dad? It's not natural that you stay out at this hour?" Leo wondered, when we started to eat.

"Oh, I just went out and had a date with Sam." Dad wiggled his eyebrows as he response like there is a meaning into it causing us to laugh at what he said.

Sam is not really joining the conversation as usual. She is just eating there and listening to us or maybe she's typing something on her phone. Well, it's no surprise to us. We already know from the start that we won't get along with her because she's not even cooperating or mingling with us.

And honestly, she is just a few years older than me. Leo and Lana are even older than her and Franco is just around her age that's why she's too young to be your stepmom. But we don't care, as long as she is making our Dad happy. Well, they are together for almost a year now so I hope that she is not just using my Dad for fun because we don't want that.

Dad deserves to be happy just like Mom.

"Hey, Dad. Don't you know that our little girl is getting married?" Franco blurted out and I was just getting there.

Dad immediately turns to me and Sam suddenly listens to the conversation once they heard that. "You and Gale are getting married?"

I narrowed my eyes at Franco and pinched him hard on his sides below the table. Jeez, way to ruin the moment. I was just about to tell him that later.

"Yes, Dad. Gale already proposed to me." I replied in a calm tone. "I was going to tell you later but Franco really knows how to ruin a surprise."

Franco is always the troublemaker in my life. Jeez, why did he even became my brother? The doctor should have just threw him out in the trash bin when Mom gave birth to him.

"Oh my, my daughter is getting married." Dad claps his hand and he looks like he's in tears. "I'm so happy for you, baby. I'm surprise, you're too young to get married. Don't tell me your pregnant?"

"No!" I gasped, shaking my head exaggeratedly.

"I'm going on ahead." Sam suddenly stands up at the middle of the conversation without second glances towards. She just bent down to kiss Dad on the forehead then turns to leaves, with no more words to say. Not even a goodbye to us.

But we did not care. She can leave if she wants to.

"The youngest one in the family but the first one to get married." Lana mentions with a laugh.

"How about you two? When are you planning to get married?" Dad turns to her oldest daughter.

"Oh, don't turn the question to me, Dad. Getting married is not part of my plan." Lana responses, really hating the topic about her tying the knot. Well, she is too devoted in her job and being in a relationship is not in her forte.

"Aren't you going to ask us, Dad?" Leo asked, humorously referring to him and Franco.

"Nah, you two are surely enjoying the bachelor's life." Dad joked causing the kitchen to be filled with laughters.

Spending that night with them is fun. Sometimes I need this in my life. Having fun without searching for anything. But there is always something wrong about this plan of getting married with Gale. Dad is right. We're too young.

And I thought I was the one who is always wanted to settle down.

And it is very irritating, that I still don't feel happy after everything that I already accomplished. Gale surely won't let me down because I know how much he loves me. He's just very demanding and very dominating but he still have his soft side when it comes to me.

Now I badly want to talk to Gale. Is getting married really the solution of his missing piece inside my chest. That missing piece that I want to find?

A few hours later when I decided to go home on ahead, Gale called me up while I was driving. "Hello?"

"Shanaya, I've been calling you for the fifth time." His demanding voice rings through the phone.

"I was having dinner with Dad, Gale. My phone was inside my bag. You already know how Dad hates when there is a phone nearby when we're all together." I explained, turning my steering wheel to the direction of the road. "And I've been calling you as well, Gale. You're the one who is not answering."

I heard him sigh. "I will let that pass because I don't have the strength to lecture you."

I mentally rolled my eyes. Lecture? What am I? A Kid?

"My conference here will take long. I will not be home until next week." Gale told me in a tired tone.

"That long?" I nearly dropped the phone. I badly want to talk to him about moving the engagement or postponing it for now. Or just solve things out.

"Why?" He questioned.

"N-nothing much." I muttered, biting my lip. "You take care of yourself there, okay?"

"Of course, I'm not a kid anymore." He stated, matter of factly then I heard someone talks to him. "Alright, I will be there in a minute." Gale told someone.

"I guess they are calling you."

"They are." Gale answered. "I will go on ahead. Make sure you go already went home by now. It's already late."

"I already am driving home."

"Good. I will call you back later or tomorrow. I love you."

"I love you too. I missed you." I sigh, biting my lower lip to stop myself from telling him the problem. He dropped the line and I threw my phone back inside my bag.

How the hell can I tell my thoughts to Gale? He is always getting ahead of me when it comes to making decisions. Well, I guess maybe because of his job as a lawyer. He loves to be in control most of the time. And it's harder this time because he is always out of the country. And he's handling a very serious case too so I don't want to be in his way for now.

I do love Gale. But it is just the marriage thing that is making me confuse.

I love Gale so much. I just don't want to get married. But if stopping this engagement will ruin me and Gale, then I choose him.

Damn, now I regret for kissing that guy in the club. I didn't know what pushed me to kiss him and I'm ready to keep that secret up to my grave.

To be continued.