Aina POV :

I was standing near the window when a car entered in  the mansion . who is at this time . when I saw the behram . why he is here now . if he wants to marry muskan now .no no now this can't happen . ' why are you after him . he will never see you like this . what's special in you . you are just giving yourself false hopes .you will never get him . what if his marriage with muskan was canceled? he can marry someone else . may be he loves someone else . ', my subconscious yelled at me . "no ..no . this can't happen . he is mine . he can't love some one else . i love him  . why he come to me ", I screamed . I cried. 

I hear the footstep near my door . i lay down on my bed and pretend to sleep . i don't want to face anyone in this situation . I have no energy in me . the door was opened by someone . it's Behram but why he is here . I can smell his fragrance . his manly smell . his touch . but why he is here . after some time he went . why he didn't say anything .why behram we are so near yet so far . why you can't see my love for you . my longing . I never raise my eyes to see any men except you . I reject all proposals for you . but guess you are not for me . 

It's morning now . but still, I want to cry . why Allah why it's me . you know I love him . I never complain about everything . i never complain about mom Anaya behavior , I never complain about the bullying and harsh words of society towards me . I was alone , I'm alone and I will be alone forever . because the person i  love the most slipping away from me . no one knows about the situation except behrooz . when he saw me taking pills . I suffered depression . but no one know . everyone knows the laughing , sweet and childish aina . but why my mom dad left me here . I know mom Anaya is not my real mom and dad is not my real dad . no one knows my pain , my suffering . no one know the real aina . I love him and lost him without even getting him . everyone can see the pain of muskan . love of muskan . but where I'm .what I'm . except for a puppet I'm nothing . I'm living on someone else money . that's the reality . why I have no one besides me . I want to tell . I'm in pain . I'm in so much pain . every time i gather myself and end up like this . thinking every wound of my life . why my life is not that simple . i want to cry on a shoulder . i want to cry in someone's arms who will tell me I'm here for you .your all suffering is also my suffering . everyone thinks muskan and behram is good for each other and tell me like every other stranger . i have parents but still, I'm orphan . i wished I have my own mom who can hear me . I'm tired . 

"aian .get up and come downstairs for breakfast ", mom said . I cleaned my face with back side of my hand . "I'm coming ", i screamed . i got up and went t the washroom to clean my face . I sat at the dining table . behram was not here . so it means he is sleeping till . ' stop thinking about him  aian '. yeah, i should . 

he came down . I didn't look at him . suddenly i hear the slap sound . I turned around .its dad . he slapped behram . it's first-time dad slapped anyone that is too behram . his favorite child . "where were you . you know what we had to face .what that innocent muskan have to face because of you . ", dad yelled . "you didn't ask me before settling anything ", he yelled  "don't talk to me in this tone , I'm your dad . I can take your life decision . you can tell me before but you didn't say anything ", dad said . 

" Because you didn't as me  you give your decision . before I can process anything you fixed my marriage . it's my life and I love someone else . I will marry her ", he screamed . i stumbled on feet . he ...he love someone else .'don't cry infront of him and give him hint . you can do this '. 

"what you love someone else . who, whom , where she is ", dad asked . he love someone else . " I will tell you , when it's right time ", he said and went from there. I got up and went to my room . in my way , muskan was looking in my way . she was thinking it's me . I gave her a broken smile . 

I entered in my room . he loves someone . love ... "NOOOOOOOOOOOO...", this can't happen . i threw everything . you are alone again aina .you don't deserve the love . yeah i don't deserve anything . then why I'm in this world . why Allah you gave everyone their love . why not me . I'm that bad . i know I'm not good person  may be . whats my sin that i get this punishment . i just ask behram . 

I lay on floor . the cold floor was not bothering me . I can feel my eyes was drooping .when darkness consumed me .i wish it end . my end ...

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