My eyes widened at his sudden action. 

He is a completely different person now. Instead of flirty and cool Hayden, he is someone with anger and frustration filled in his eyes, standing right in front of me. 

He drags me by my hand to a dark room. The lights were off, so I can't explain where exactly we are. 

“Uh…what is it?” The tremor is audible in my voice, and it transfers into my whole body. He grabs my wrist blandly exerting his physical advantage on me. And I hate myself for feeling like a little girl again. Like the ten-year-old Hope, they got beaten up on her first day of school. 

“What the hell is wrong with you?” I yelled in fury.

“Just leave me fucking alone” I yelled again.

But he isn't even bothering to listen to me. My heart is hammering in my chest rapidly. 

“How dare you to reject me, Hope?” He said harshly as rage flowed through him like lava. 

The way he speaks sends shivers through my spine. And I don't mean the good one.

I just said I don't want to go for coffee what's the big deal. 

He holds me by my shoulder and pulls me closer to him even more. 

“Will you still reject me now.” He whispered. 

Panic surged through me again.

I don't know what he wants me to feel, but I'm damn sure whatever the hell he's trying to make me feel, I'm definitely not feeling.

All I want is to get the hell out of here. 

I don't know how, but I gather some courage and push him away from me. And slap him as hard as I could. And ran out of the room as quickly as I could. I listened to him saying, Sorry from behind. 

“Sorry to my fucking foot,” I mumbled to myself.

How could this happen to me on the first day of college? 

I run towards the bathroom and lock myself in. 

I try to calm myself but tears swelled in my eyes and Once that first tear broke free, the rest followed in an unbroken stream.

I have never kissed anyone. And I didn't want my first kiss to be like this. I sob even harder now. I don't know why I am crying but it all is so sudden and shocking. My heart is still beating wildly in my chest. I attempt to calm myself again. 

Breath in...breath out...breath in...breath out...

I get out of the washroom. Look at my appearance in the mirror. I can't continue with this shit anymore. So I call Katherine, So that we can head back home.

She picks at the second ring.

“Hey, baby doll.” She said cheerfully

“Katherine…!” I said, trying not to cry again.

“What's wrong Hope?” She asked anxiously.

“Can we go home?” I ask her as I start sobbing.

“Why? What's wrong?” She asks anxiously? 

“Can we please?” I murmured as a sob escape my mouth. 

“Where are you?” She inquires 

“Washroom” I managed to say in between my sobbing. 

“M coming,” she announced and hung up.

You must be thinking why I am crying even though it isn't a big deal, I slapped him and nothing happened. But still, a small part of me is crying because why? Why always me? It was my first day. I was so cheerful. Why me? 

That's why I don't mingle with the people. Because you never know when they change. You can never know when they will leave, Without even thinking about anyone.

I try to think positively. But I can't. I am exhausted. I push my thoughts away, As I listen to Katherine's voice. 

“Hope? Are you okay?” She asks me anxiously.

I hugged her and began sobbing even more. 

“It's okay let's go home,” she announced while dragging me out of the washroom towards the parking lot.

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We came back home. I had a quick shower to calm myself. I wore sweatpants with a white top. Sitting on my bed.

Katherine appears in the room.

“Wanna talk about it?” She asked with a lot of concern in her voice.

“Yeah come here,” I ask looking up at her with red and swelled eyes. 

I told her about everything, how I met Hayden in the conversation, and all. As tears start streaming from my eyes. 

“Why me Kat? I've never done anything bad to anyone. I don't know why people do this to me. I don't know why, but it hurts like fucking hell.” My voice cracks. 

“Baby, it's not like that, don't overthinking.”

“This cruel world doesn't know how pure you are.” She mumbles with a genuine smile. 

This made me feel much better. At least there is someone who cares about me. 

I gave her a cheeky smile. She is the only one who can make me laugh in between sobbing.

She is the only one who can make me smile in my worst. 

“Let's order some pizza and watch a movie, what say,” She asks hopefully while picking her cell phone from the side table.

I nodded with a smile. 

We ordered pizza and began watching 'The Notebook'. 

I always wonder How it feels when a guy loves you more than anything. Who is always ready to do anything for you...

I end up crying like always. 

And Katherine, well she is laughing, like literally laughing at me that I am senti enough to cry just over a damn movie. 

“You're such a sentimental, girl,” she says in between her giggling. 

“M not sentimental, you are the emotionless one,” I say while wiping my tears. 

She giggles again. 

“Hey, I forgot totally about camping,” she announces cheerfully. 

“We're going, right?” She adds

“I don't know Kat,” I say, playing with my hands. 

“Lets goo. We'll have lots of fun.” She insists, holding both of my hands.

“Don't ruin your excitement because of a jerk.” She adds with puppy eyes. 

Yeah, she is right why would I ruin my fun.

Even though I was very excited about camping before this mess. 

“Yeah you're right, let's go,” I said cheerfully 

“I have not even decided what to wear.” She confessed excitedly. 

I giggled at her childishness, 

“Let's go shopping.” She said abruptly.

“What? Now?” I asked surprised by her sudden announcement.

“Yes, why not?” She said it like, isn't a big deal, but it is. We are talking about shopping at midnight.

“Kat. It's already midnight are you drunk?”

“It'll be fun.” She appealed even more excitedly. 

I examine her face for a minute just to make sure she is serious and guess what... She is. 

“Please.” She says with puppy eyes because she knows I can't reject her when she does that. I can't help but sigh. 

“Okay, let's go,” I announced, and she starts clapping and jumping. Sometimes she behaves really like a child. I giggle at her childishness, making my way to change my clothes. 

We both decided to wear casual. Kat is wearing a baby pink sweater with white jeans.



And I am wearing a black T-shirt with blue denim ripped jeans.