Chapter 21- Who are they?

Fiona's gaze fixated at the man and her body froze. Adam's eyes darted at her bloodless face and then at her wrist, it was again started bleeding.He got up and tried to touch her wrist but Fiona's flinched. She suddenly felt suffocated, trying to take a deep breath she opened her mouth but she couldn't suck any air. Her chest constricted and felt her lungs were burning for the lack of oxygen. Sweats were running from her forehead and neck.Suddenly her eyes were droopy and placing her both hands on her chest she tried to take air but couldn't, her body began trembling and she fell limply on the bed losing her consciousness. Adam couldn't understand what to do, everything happened so quickly."Hey, can you hear me?" Adam sat up and patted her cheeks. He quickly called doctor O'neil."Hey!" Dr. O'neil gently patted her cheeks.Fiona didn't respond"Last night she acted frantically and now she fainted again. It's not a good sign. However, we can't force her to get consciousness. Mr. Knight, tell me exactly how she reacted now before losing her consciousness?" Dr. Oneil asked Adam."She woke up and saw me beside her." Adam answered."That's it. You are the last person she would want to see. That's the trigger behind her attack." The doctor explained."But she was the one who came to me and asked me to save her. Last night, she didn't reacted this way towards me!" Adam shot, knitting his brows."She must have acted this way in the spur of moment, her brain was too occupied and she was afraid, so her brain couldn't function properly. Or, I am not sure, I have to see her when she gets consciousness back. It's really important. I can't make vague assumptions. And for this, you have to help me. Don't come near her for now, come before her when I will call you. I have to make sure that what's the case with her." Dr. O'neil stated.Adam didn't say anything, gritting his teeth in anger, took a deep breath.Few hours later, Fiona woke up again. This time, she was not alone in the room. She saw the doctor sitting on a chair."Hey, you are up? How are you feeling right now?" The doctor quickly asked her.Fiona didn't reply, her eyes widened slightly and she started breathing fast all of a sudden. She tried to get up but failed miserably.Watching her panicked expression, doctor O'neil realized that she was scared."Don't be scared, I won't hurt you. You can trust me, please." He smiled softly. Staring at him, Fiona scrutinized his feature, if he was telling truth and she calmed down when he seemed harmless. She tried to get up again and fell on the bed again."Easy, there. I am coming." Doctor O'neil said getting up from his chair. He helped her to sit up."Can you hear me? How are you feeling?" He asked.Fiona blinked few times before opening her mouth, but she couldn't form any word. Her throat was dry.She mouthed, "water.""Wait a bit. I am bringing it." Doctor O'neil went to the bedside table to pour water in the glass."Here," He brought it close to her lips and like a starveling, she gulped the entire content in a go. He gently took her hand and removed the IV cannula from her wrist. Fiona closed her eyes as her head was throbbing in pain."B-b-bathroom." She spoke somehow."Oh. Okay." Dr. O'neil helped her to get down from the bed and Fiona walked inside the bathroom with her slow, weak, wobbly steps. She sat on the toilet and did her morning routine. She rubbed her temple and bridge of nose, her head was aching badly. She got up and turning the shower on, stood under the it. The cold water was flowing in a soothing stream, alleviating her headache. Her whole body was soaking wet, but she didn't care.She kept on standing under the shower, closing her eyes, she was feeling every bit of offering the cold water could offer. After standing under the shower for a few minutes, she was feeling better. Rotating the dial, she turned the shower off.She removed her soaked dress and wiped her whole body. She went to grab the bathrobe which was hanging from a hanger beside the full length mirror.Her movements stopped when her eyes subconsciously fell on her naked body through the mirror. The bathrobe which she was holding, fell on the bathroom floor.She was staring at the mirror.The naked girl inside the mirror laughed loudly. Fiona's eyes widened looking at her. She looked exactly same as her."W-who are you?" Fiona stammered in fear."Me? I am you. We both are same, a WHORE!" She replied. Her reply drained blood from Fiona's face."No. I am not you, I am not a whore." Fiona said shaking her head."You are. You are. You spread your legs to satiate others' lust. What are you if you aren't a whore?" The girl taunted from the mirror."No! Shut up! I am not a whore." Fiona yelled."Ha ha ha ha ha! You are a whore! Look at your body, the name is carved in your skin like a permanent mark. It's nothing but reminder that you are nothing but a whore!" The girl inside the mirror jeered making Fiona speechless."B-but I d-didn't do anything, h-he c-curved this on me. I c-cried but he d-didn't listen." Tears rolled down her cheeks remembering those memories."Yeah. That's the point. No one cares for you or me, we were sold in a brothel. What are we if not a whore? Admit it when you know it's truth." The girl inside the mirror stated."No! Just shut up! I am not a whore! Don't ever come before my eyes!" Fiona growled."Ha ha ha ha ha." The girl laughed again. Her cruel laughter echoed in the whole bathroom, sending shiver in Fiona's body."Shut up! Go away from here! I am not a whore!" Fiona let out a scream. Suddenly the girl wasn't inside the mirror, Fiona could see her everywhere of the bathroom she looked.The girl was laughing and taunting at her saying, "Whore!""Stopppppp Pleaseeee!" Fiona covered her ears and screamed."Go away! You are not real." Fiona muttered."I am real, your reality. Admit it Fiona, we are no different existance, we are the same, a whore! an unwanted trash!" The girl spat."No!" Fiona screamed, her eyes riveted on her bare stomach and her breath hitched at her throat. The gruesome sight made her want to puke. The horrible carving made her body stilled. Something snapped in her head."You are right, I am actually a whore." Fiona muttered herself.She again heard a loud laughter echoing inside the bathroom."Fiona, no one loves you, you are pathetic. Your father and brother died, you couldn't even protect your child. You should die too. Die!" The girl rebuked at her, her voice was laced with venom."Yes, I should die too." Fiona whispered, nodding.She looked around the bathroom in search of something sharp. She couldn't find anything to cut herself or hurt herself.Someone was banging on the bathroom door from outside."Open the door right now!" Someone yelled from the out side of the door.But Fiona wasn't in her right mind. The door was now quaking by the force of intense banging. Though the sound of loud banging on the door filled the entire bathroom, unfortunately it didn't reach her ear."I should die, that's how I would be able to reunite with everyone." Fiona murmured. She walked to the wall before her and slammed her head against the wall hard. Again slammed her head on the wall and then did the same. Her head spun and warm blood trickled down her forehead. Sliding against the wall, she sat on the floor.She touched her forehead and looked at her fingers, covered with blood."Like me, my blood is also impure." She contorted her face with disgust.Suddenly the door burst open revealing Adam. His eyes widened observing Fiona, she was naked and blood was oozing out of her forehead. First he thought she might slipped on the floor and hurt herself but when his eyes fell on the raw blood stain of the wall, he realized that it was Fiona who hurt herself. His surprise replaced with anger."What the hell are you doing!" He boomed, his eyes blazing fire and nostrils were flaring in anger. Fiona turned her head to look at him.In another time Fiona would get scared or try to run but right now her brain was occupied with the thoughts of another girl who looked just like her and and how to kill herself."You were right. I am indeed a whore. She is also telling me this. She is telling me to die." Fiona mumbled. Her shoulder slumped in defeat and she lowered her head. She was unfazed by her nakedness before his eyes.Adam frowned looking at her. He walked to her."Who is she? Whom are you talking about?" Adam asked."Her. She is telling me to die." Fiona pointed her hand at the imaginary girl, in reality there was nothing. Adam realized that something was wrong with her again."There is no one, get up." He urged her and pulled her arms to make her stand up."Don't touch me, you pig! I don't want to live, I want to die!" She screamed at his face.Adam clenched his jaw."There is no one, let's go back to your room." He sternly stated."Room? What room? There is no room for me. Why are you here? To fuck me again?" She shallowed, her hands trembled."What! No! I won't." Adam answered."I don't believe you, liar! You made me a whore but I would rather kill myself before let anyone touch me again!" She yelled."No, listen to me-" Adam grabbed her arm but Fiona gave him a hard push."Don't touch me!" She hissed."I will do what she is saying, I must kill myself so no one can hurt me again." Fiona said and stood up. She was about to slam her head on the wall again but this time, Adam grabbed her from behind."Stop this madness!" He roared."Noooo! Don't touch me, leave me! I want to die, I don't want to live as a whore anymore!" She cried, trying go get free from his grip.She was hitting his chest with her fists and was scratching his skin to get free. Accidentally her finger nails scratched near his left eye."Fuck!" He cursed, loosening his grip on her. Fiona again went to the wall trying to hurt her head.Adam couldn't understand what to do, he grabbed the towel and pulling her towards himself, he tackled her on the bathroom floor. He covered her body with the towel and got over her body, capturing both of her hands above her head.This was a very familiar position to her, Fiona thought he was about to rape her again."Leave me! Leave me you devil!" She screamed, thrashing her body on the floor to get free. Draping the towel around her body, Adam took her out of the bathroom.She was punching, kicking him but Adam's strength was no match for her. He easily subdued her and placed her on the bed, caging he with his large frame."Let me die! Leave me!""Leave me devil!""Go away devil!""Let me kill myself, she is asking me!" Fiona was screaming, trying to kick and punch frantically."What happened to her forehead?" Doctor O'neil asked Adam. When Fiona didn't come out of the bathroom after half an hour, he called Adam."She slammed her head against the wall. She is trying to kill herself." Adam answered"Who is she talking about?" Dr. O'neil queried."I don't know." Adam spoke."But I have to talk to her and know about this. But she is uncontrollable, I must control her first." Dr. O'neil injected a liquid in her arm and slowly Fiona's movement stilled."What have you injected her? She will get back to sleep again?" Adam asked."No, I just have her muscle relaxant. It paralyses her body muscles for a while and makes her brain at ease. She can't move her body muscle, but she can talk. She will speak truth without any hesitation or fear. It will keep her in a stance. Now let me ask her questions, so I can start her therapy accordingly." Dr. O'neil said."W-what h-have you given me? Why c-can't I move? Is he going to r-rape me again?" Fiona asked, her voice trembled."No, he is not gonna touch you again, I promise. Please relax yourself." Dr. O'neil assured her."T-then w-why can't I move my b-body?" Fiona queried."You were hurting yourself, so I gave you a simple muscle relaxant drug. After an hour you will be able to move again. Now please relax yourself and answer some questions of mine." Dr. O'neil voiced while cleaning the wound of her forehead."W-What question?""What were you trying to do? Why were you hurting yourself? Your forehead is bleeding.""I was trying to kill myself." She gave a curt reply."But why? Why do you want to die?" Dr. O'neil questioned after bandaging her forehead."Why should I live? I don't have anyone, father, brother. I lost my child too." Her voice broke and tears slid down from the corners of her eyes."I am sorry for your loss. Fiona can you tell me what happened last night?""I was sleeping but suddenly woke up when a loud cry reached my ear. I saw a small baby was crying, his whole body was bloody. He was crying and saying that I was a bad mother and he will hurt me because I didn't save my child." Fiona sniffed.Dr. O'neil couldn't say anything for a while, let her cry."Do you somehow blame yourself for the loss of your child?" He hesitated but asked. He didn't want to trigger her more but it was important to know her feeling to start the treatment."He didn't deserve a weak mother like me who couldn't save him. If I was stronger, he would be alive. It's all my fault." She said."What do you feel about your child? Did you love him? Wasn't it a result of the torture you went through?" Doctor inquried."Don't say that!" Fiona barked."It may be result of rape but he didn't do any crime. It wasn't his fault. Regardless I was the mother, I loved him. Now the child is also gone, I don't want to live." She cried."What happened in the bathroom? Why did you try to kill yourself all of a sudden?""When I was wiping my body, I saw a girl was laughing at me from inside the mirror. She looked just like me. She said I am nothing but a whore, the name is carved in my body. I should die." Fiona answered."But there is no one in the bathroom. It was must be your delusion." He told her."No! It's real. She is real! Even now she is standing here, smirking at me. See there." She moved her eyeballs directing to a particular direction.Dr. O'neil nodded and said, "Thank you." He gave her a kind smile."W-what i-is happening to me? I am feeling sleepy. W-why?" Her voice got heavy."Yeah, you need sleep after a stressful morning. You will fall asleep." He stated.Fiona tried to ask more but couldn't keep her eyes open, she found her falling in the arms of gentle slumber.Dr. O'neil and Adam came outside of her room, letting her sleep peacefully."You heard everything. She is mentally unstable and lost all the hopes of living. She hallucinates about the things she fears most and they gives her nightmare or scares. She stands in a self destructive phase. She will try to kill herself again whenever she will get the chance. For her, suicide is the only option to end all her pain. Depression, anxiety, trauma, her condition is complicated than I thought. She needs slow and long time treatment. But-" Dr. O'neil stopped."But what?" Adam asked."To ensure the effectiveness something needs to be done. I don't think you can do all of these." The doctor uttered.Adam's got angry. How could he know what can I do or not? He thought."Why do you think there will be anything I can't do? I will spend whatever amount of money it takes, make her normal as before." Adam snapped crinkling his forehead.Dr. O'neil couldn't help feeling sorry for his stupidity."Mr. Knight, not every time money is everything. She lost all the hopes of living, she lost everyone. She needs to be with her family. If possible bring her family here. It may work but I am not sure. Can you do that?" Dr. O'neil spoke in a chiding tone....

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