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"I'm not going to pretend that I'm cool with that bitch going against my orders on my wedding day, I was very clear when I said no slits." I pushed my gown along, finally stopping at the balcony. Feeling the cold air hit my face, I breathed out in relief. My room is packed with people, most I don't know from Adam and it's really uncomfortable.

"Calm down, it's not that big of a deal." I put my arm on the railing admiring the view that my hotel room provided. I know it's no big deal but I just can't stand the Stacy girl or maybe I'm just frustrated, my wedding gown is tighter than normal, my makeup is crappy.

At least that's what I think.

"I hate that you are always kissing her butt." Ever since Stacey got Gemma a modeling deal, Gemma has been ass-kissing.

"She's not that bad." I rolled my eyes.

"I knew I'd find you guys here." Oh, what's she doing here? Her face accompanied the forbidden slits. To be honest, the dress looks good on her, I mean she has the legs.

"Can I talk to you?" Stacey asked.

No!

I looked at Gemma's pleading eyes.

"Sure." I sent a tight smile towards her direction.

"I'll just leave you two." I looked down at my painted nails just in case I need to scratch a bitch, Gemma leaves.

"I feel that I've wronged you." I looked up at the dumb hoe, you feel? I rolled my eyes at her statement.

"It's okay." It's not okay but then again I can't stand her presence.

"You know I got the legs and everyone has to know." She calls this an apology? I really don't want to have this conversation, she clearly isn't remorseful.

"Plus, my boyfriend Ace loves it." Wait! What? Ace? Boyfriend? I should have known this conversation was leading to a joke.

What if it's true?

If it is, I honestly don't care as long as my previous interaction with him isn't spoken about.

"Ace; Javi's brother?" I inquired trying to keep a straight face.

"Yeah, we met at your wedding rehearsal and we are in love." Okay! There's no way I'll take this seriously, it's laughable.

"In love? Amazing." It's so hard to keep a straight face now, Gemma needs to hear this.

"Yeah, that's why I want to put our odds aside. I feel I'll join the family very soon." I coughed not wanting to laugh out loud.

"Loren, The cars are ready," Ashanti called out. Ashanti is one of my bridesmaids and my cousin.

"Good luck!" I muttered mockingly at Stacey as I pushed my dress along leaving the delusional girl.

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I withdrew from the overly uncomfortable kiss, no sparks, no emotion, no passion. I smiled at my husband.

This is it, I'm married.

I turned to the crowd, they finally stopped chanting "kiss" now they are clapping. I looked around only for my eyes to land on a sinfully handsome looking Ace suited up with his hair neatly swept back, the change in style looks good on him.

He should wear that suit forever.

Not cool Loren, you are married I mentally reminded my self before sending him a tight smile.

He raises is glass muttering "congratulations", he winked at me before I turned away.

"It's time to throw the bouquet." A voice was heard from the crowd.

"Yes." Now everyone's yelling.

Oh jeez!

"I'll be right back." My words gained a peck from Javi.

Here comes the guilt.

I walked down, moving towards the girls gathered, I spotted Gemma giving her the "you better catch the bouquet" look.

I finally stopped sending a smile to the girls before turning, throwing the bouquet towards Gemma's direction.

I turned around immediately only to see the bouquet with an overly excited Stacey smiling widely at my direction, I glared at Gemma, she gave a shrug.

I walked back to where I was seated earlier, smiling at Javi before picking up my wine.

Can this wedding end already?

I almost choked on my drink when I spotted Stacey waving the bouquet at a horrified Ace.

"Are you okay?" I nodded taking my eyes of those two and focused my attention on Javi.

~~~

There's the awkward part being alone in a hotel room with Javi.

"I'm so happy to be able to call you my wife."I bit my lower lip not knowing what to say at his sweet words as his hands snake their way around my waist pulling me closer.

"Did I mention how beautiful you are?" I simply nodded as he pulls me into an emotionless kiss.

I made an effort deepening the kiss hoping to feel something, anything. He moved his hands from my waist down my butt giving it a light squeeze, I still didn't feel any arousal, I was so uncomfortable.

He started trailing kissing from my neck his hands still on my butt. I looked at the wall ahead as I felt his hands at my upper back pulling my zipper down.

Now's a perfect time.

"Javi," I called out once I felt his bulge grinding on me.

"Javi," I called out again as he reluctantly withdrew.

"I'm really tired, we can continue this later." I feel really guilty as I noticed the disappointment on his face or is it anger.

Javi isn't one that gets angry easily.

"You sure?" He said as he continued sucking on my neck.

He has defiantly removed the makeup used to cover the previous mark.

Thank goodness he hasn't noticed.

"Yeah, I'm sure," I said immediately moving away to avoid further sloppy kisses.

I looked around feeling uneasy as the room falls into silence.

"I'm gonna take a shower." I finally whispered breaking the silence, he nods sitting on the bed.

I moved into the bathroom closing the door behind me.

I'm so stupid and cruel.

I cheated on him and I'm now refusing to have sex with him, I feel so fucking guilty. I'm married to him and I should get comfortable having sex with him, whether I like it or not.

Well, not today I really have to sleep.

~~~

We finally pulled up at Javi's mansion, I looked at the intellectually structured building, I have been here before but I still can't take my eyes off the beauty of building exteriors. The house was kept enclosed by a unique fencing, neatly trimmed hedges surrounding the house.

I smiled at Javi as he opens the door for me while I made my way out, I immediately noticed a marble fountain sitting towards the right side of the lawn, I don't think I saw it the last time I was here.

It's so beautiful.

It reminds me of the hotel we logged in back in Greece. Sadly, we didn't even spend a day in Greece after the wedding because we both had work to get back to.

Javi ushered me towards the main entrance of the building as we made use of the sidewalk, he smiles at me before opening the door. If you think outside of the house is beautiful you need to make it inside.

The black and white linoleum floor of the entrance glowed as we walked in, I looked around spotting the beautiful high arched windows, velvet drapes framed the windows, the lace inner curtains remained drawn, allowing daylight to enter.

I moved aside giving space for the workers to take our suitcases in, I looked up at the amazing chandeliers.

"Bro, you are back." My heart skipped a beat once I heard a familiar voice, my eyes widened as it landed on Ace.

"What are you doing here?" Javi took the words right out of my mouth.

"Don't be like that, I need a place to stay for the meantime." Wait, what? He can't stay here.

"Don't you have a job in New York?" Javi looks angry, I really don't care about his immediate change in mood, I just want Ace out of here.

"I got fired and I sold my house, I have nowhere else to stay bro." He shrugged.

"Then stay at dad's house," Javi argued.

"Dad mustn't know I got fired, besides I like it here already." He winks at me while saying those words.

Kill me now!