I'm not her

She thought she was dead. She thought she was going to die. She wished to be dead but why?

"Save my daughter."

"Do everything just to keep her alive."

"I'm begging you."

That was her mother and her lover talking to the doctors before they brought her inside the operating room.

"Just let me die." She wanted to say those words to the people who are going to save her from death

"Her heart rate is dropping! We're losing her."

She then felt something blocked her airways, it was painful but she wanted that pain. Finally, she's going to die.

Then a sudden force strike to her body, making her soul threw out of it, at that moment she thought she was dead as she watched herself being revived by the doctors.

"I can't understand why some people wanted to die when there are people out there fighting for their lives."

She was startled by the person rather soul standing next to her.

"Who are you?" She looked at the lady from head to toe "Are you dead too?"

"It doesn't matter who I am and no, I'm not dead but my body is dying somewhere in this hospital and you're not dead." The other soul smiled at her "Why do you want to die?"

She tried to remember why she was so eager to end her life then she remembered how she lost hope. She lost the only person that she valued the most.

"There's no more reason to live, my father died and I want to be with him again."

"Your mother was there and a girl waiting for you outside this room, can't you make them your reasons to live?"

Her mother who's always away and her girlfriend who chose to cheat on her.

"As much as I want to but I can't."

"She's breathing again. Everything is stable now."

Her feet started to fade; she's going back to her body.

"If you can't find reasons to live then I'll give you mine. You can't remember this but you will remember me." The other soul held her hands "From now on, you and I are one."

~~

It's been five days since she crashed her car; five days since she decided to die but failed.

"When will you going to wake up?"

"You're really a moron, you know that? Who told you that you can leave us just like that?"

That was her best friends, talking to her sleeping body. For the first time, she felt guilty for wanting to die that night.

"I guess this is really goodbye." She heard an unfamiliar voice

"Who is that?"

"We're going to remove your life support now, honey."

Suddenly she found herself in a hospital room, it wasn't her room; she was surrounded by unfamiliar people who were crying while looking at the person lying down on the bed.

"No more pain now, my love." A girl about her age said before kissing the person on the bed

"What is this?" She felt hot liquid trickling down "Why I am crying?"

"I love you."

"Don't cry, love. I'm still here." She covered her mouth "Why did I say that?"

The woman tapped the girl's shoulder telling her that it's already time.

The girl looked so brave, as if she prepared herself for that situation. The woman with shaking hands removed the only thing that connects life and death and when the monitor showed straight line, she found herself again in a house.

"What is happening?" She looked around "This is not our house."

"You're in my house."

It was the person who was lying down on the bed.

"What is happening? Why I am here? Who are you?" She questioned after question

"It doesn't matter who I am. I want you to look around and familiarize everything because you're going to live here with the person we love."

She was confused as hell. Though the girl's request was simple she still can't comprehend.

She didn't ask anything after that instead, she granted the request of the stranger.

"This is the girl I saw in the hospital room." She said, looking at the beautiful portrait hanging on the wall "Who is she? She was crying over you."

"She's going to be your reason to live; she's the one who will bring back the spark to your dull eyes. You will meet her soon."

They continued to tour around the house; living room, kitchen, the bedrooms and lastly the music room.

"You're going to love this place." Her company stated

"I'm not into music, that's impossible." She contradicted

"You will just like how you will love her." She said, referring to the girl in the portrait "Love her with everything you have; love her more than I did."

"I... I can't understand. I don't even know that girl besides I have a girlfriend."

"A girlfriend? Try to remember the events before you crashed your car."

Just like a flash, she traveled from the unfamiliar house to their house.

She was watching herself watching her girlfriend kissing her brother.

"I looked like stupid. My own brother betrayed me."

She blinked once then she's back in the unfamiliar house with the stranger.

"She's not your girlfriend anymore." The stranger said to her

"You're right but I cannot just love someone that easily especially when someone just told me so."

"You will love her not because I told you but because it's destined."

"Destined? That's bullshit."

"Say whatever you want to say." The stranger sat in front of the grand piano "Do you play any instrument?"

"I don't, I'm not into music I already told you that. I saw the woman removing your life support; it means you're dead now."

"I am and what you saw earlier was five days ago. You're just dreaming but this dream is true." She started to play the piano

"Dreams can't be true." The melody made her calm it connects to her as if it was talking to her

"They can be true if you will believe to them." Her fingers stopped so was the melody "I need to go." She stood up

"Tell me her name, the girl in the portrait, what's her name?" She desperately asked

A ball of light slowly approaching the stranger "You already know her because the night our souls met we became one."

Two forces pulled them from the opposite side, she felt like the air in her lungs is dwindling, she started to grasp for air. She can't die; she wanted to live.

The next thing she knew was she's back in her hospital room; opened eyes and grasping for air.

"Emma, where is Emma?"

Her friends, mother and her girlfriend stared at her in wide eyes. Sofia is awake and now she needs to find her new hope, Emma.