CELESTE'S POV

I have been lost in thoughts since last night. I don't even understand what's wrong with me. There is something about Dylan, that makes me want to know him more. Like he is a mystery in himself, ready to be unfold. What was it about him that I couldn't pinpoint, but still feel strongly? It was weird for me to be thinking about him. This has never happened before.

It's not like I am attracted to him, I am just curious. I woke up just after a few hours of us having sex. Sneaking around in an attempt to not wake him up, I grabbed my undergarments and slided them back on my body.

I had a hard time finding my dress, but I had to leave so I looked for it in the dark and found it by the sofa. I zipped it up immedatiely and picked up my heel proceding towards the door. 

Reaching to the handle, something urged me to look back for one last time. I did take a look at his peacefully sleeping face under the duvet and left from there, not wanting to stay there anymore. My job was done there and I was not one to sleep or cuddle with anyone. I had to get home.

I fixed my dress up a little, to hide the hickeys that were present on my thighs, even a little visible after applying too much concealer. It almost took me half an hour to cover them up. Seeing them in the morning, surely made me furious. I asked him, to not leave any marks, but he still did and it's bothering me ever since. I could get into trouble because of him now.

I rolled my eyes and shooked all thoughts from my head, while I focused on the present moment. 

I looked at my left. There he was sitting, while driving his SV Autobiography Range Rover with his right hand and holding my right hand in his left one. He looked completely focused as the veins on his neck were visible.

I focused on his side profile. He was a man of examplary beauty, with his brown eyes, brown messy hairs, his jaw set in straight line, his perfect lips. Whenever I look at him, I feel like he was getting more handsome. 

He was wearing sunglasses while driving, as he had sensitive eyes. I can't help but keep falling in love with him, whenever he is near. He is the only one who can make my heart beat faster. But guilt always weighs heavy on my heart, with each glance that I steal at him. I feel like I will never be able to get out of this.

He noticed me staring at him and smiled, turning his face a little towards me, " You are staring at me again, Cel baby!" I got the perfect view of his face, when he turned and my heart skipped a beat, as it always did. He was perfect, while I was not!

I didn't reply and still kept staring at him, so he added, " Am I that handsome?!" His tone was teasing. 

I smirked and leaned towards him to kiss his cheek. I grabbed his face from my left hand and left a kiss on his cheek with a smooch sound, smirking while a laugh left his mouth, " Yes! You are the most handsome man in the universe and You are mine!" I showed my possessiveness and sat back on my seat, turning my face back towards the windshield, hiding my smile. If he thought he would be able to fluster me like this, then he was so wrong. I loved him!

He smiled genuinely, showing his bunny teeth and kissed my hand, that he always grabbed while driving. I loved this habit of him. He alwaya made me feel special, when I was not!

I curiously looked outside the windshield, to find out where we were headed. He asked me in the morning to get ready in a formal dress, so I wore a floral dress that was not too short and was elegant enough. I had to hide all the marks of hickeys and handprint on my thighs.

When I headed to the lounge and asked him where we were going, he said it was a surprise, but I was curious, 

Looking outside I tried to know where we were going once again, " Where are we going?! Please tell me!" I whined making puppy eyes at him, even when he was not looking. He could still feel my whiny voice.

He glanced at me for a second and turned his head back again to the front, while a smile was constantly present on his face, " Don't show me these eyes! These won't work right now, Cel! I told you it's a surprise" I pouted and turned around to look outside from my side of window. 

“ I hate you!” I uttered pouting and a breathy laugh escaped his lips, filling up the luxury car making my ears heat up.

“ No you don't! You love me!” He kissed my hands again and added lovingly.

I ended up giggling at his confidence. He was always so cheesy. He always kept kissing my hands, making me feel safe, only if he knew, my smile dropped at this thought. I dreaded looking at him at moments like these, when I felt guilty. What if he found out everything looking into my eyes one day?

He noticed my sad face and thought, that it was because of him not telling me about the surprise. He tried to cheer me up thinking it was all because of him, " Cel baby! Don't be upset please!" He kept kissing my hand, trying to make me feel better but this was suffocating for me.

Glancing at me from time to time, he kept looking at the road too. I looked at him and gave him a fake smile to assure him, " I am not upset! Just a little curious and sleepy!" He glanced at me again and squeezed my hand. His small gestures always made my heart flutter and also drown in guilt at the same time. I wished it was not like this!

I turned my head back and gave a squeeze to his hand in assurance. We were heading to God Knows where, but the sight was beautiful. There was forest on both side and a road in the center, on which we were driving right now. It felt like a road right out of a fairy tale.

I looked at my right and noticed flower gardens in the distance. I loved flower gardens, they always made me want to paint them.

Yes, I loved to paint. It was my dream to be a painter one day, but I knew it's going to be impossible. But I will never give up on it. 

We don't always get what we want in life and what we get, is too hard to accept. But we must accept what life has to offer, in order to survive. It doens't mean we should stop trying.

I turned to look at him again, atleast life gave me something worth living, that I never want to lose. A genuine smile appeared on my face seeing him humming to "perfect" song that was playing in low volume.

Noticing me staring at him, he increased the pitch of his voice and sang cheekily along the song,

~We are still kids, but we're so in love
Fightin' against all odds
I know we'll be alright this time
Darling, just hold my hand
Be my girl, I'll be your man
I see my future in your eyes

Yeah he was right! I see my future in his eyes. The future that was insecure.
           

I still managed to laugh, when he leaned towards me.

I couldn't help but admit. He was all I had. He was my boyfriend, TOBIAS ASHFORD. I don't even know, what I had done to deserve him, but I won't be able to live if I lose him one day. I dread that day!

I knew that we don't always get what we want in life, if only I understood it a little better, the life in the future would have been easier.